i always get down when i am around someone for a long time, i dont know why it is. Maybe because i know that they will lose intrest, like everyone before them.
maybe it is self fufilling prophecy. maybe i try to hard when i start to feel like i am losin someones interest. how do i go to the next step with a person?...
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maybe it is self fufilling prophecy. maybe i try to hard when i start to feel like i am losin someones interest. how do i go to the next step with a person?...
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Oh Hell Yes!!!!
A New Set Of Mary!!!!
Just when i was growin weary, along comes her set to bring SG Back to my heart.
Mary and Erin were the two reasons i joined, i stayed for the ppl, and for some of the other sg.
Of all the fantasies i have, there are two i would give my left nut for, Mary and Pj...
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A New Set Of Mary!!!!
Just when i was growin weary, along comes her set to bring SG Back to my heart.
Mary and Erin were the two reasons i joined, i stayed for the ppl, and for some of the other sg.
Of all the fantasies i have, there are two i would give my left nut for, Mary and Pj...
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writing here is my way of venting, it is my therapy, i dont have money for a doctor, i cant use the ones here without hurting my career. i know it probably gets on ppls nerves and it may cause ppl to judge me by what i write. i am more then what you think, i am more then what i my friends know.
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trinityy:
what you feel should be expressed. if someone judges you for it fuck em. i know i don't judge an di am always here for you! no matter what you say i still care and love u dearly!
xoxo
trin
xoxo
trin
juno106:
well write as much as you want... I'm reading...
Hope to talk to you soon.
Hope to talk to you soon.
i have been cursed with having empathy, sympathy and emotions. i want to remove them all.
what is a good way to do that?
i saw a girl last night who i liked at a bar. she came up said hi, i said hi. it was an awkward moment. later i think i overheard a friend tellin her that i really liked her, but she...
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what is a good way to do that?
i saw a girl last night who i liked at a bar. she came up said hi, i said hi. it was an awkward moment. later i think i overheard a friend tellin her that i really liked her, but she...
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i have been struggling lately,
struggling with my personal life.
should i just say fuck everyone and become a recluse?
its an option that is safe.
should i just continue on feelin like shit, bein the 'friend'?
that is the shitty way to go.
should i just say fuck off to the ones who make me feel this way?
should i be the better person...
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struggling with my personal life.
should i just say fuck everyone and become a recluse?
its an option that is safe.
should i just continue on feelin like shit, bein the 'friend'?
that is the shitty way to go.
should i just say fuck off to the ones who make me feel this way?
should i be the better person...
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damn, i was salty, i started to give up hope, till i said fuck it, i got keep tryin, what makes a person keep gettin up when they are knocked down and out? maybe i like gettin beat down, it teaches me how to beat others. maybe i do have a competetive spirit and shit. i cant quit, no matter what. i cant give up,...
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mamabunny:
Dearest Klu,
It seems like every journal entry i read of yours gets sadder and sadder. It makes me want to cry and give you a big fucking hug. I really really from the bottom of my heart hope things look up for you. You are one of the greatest people i know( and ive told you this a many times before )
Stay postive. You always make me smile, and those are the parts of you i love.
Holla at me, and let me know whats goin on with you.
Love
MB
Dearest Klu,
It seems like every journal entry i read of yours gets sadder and sadder. It makes me want to cry and give you a big fucking hug. I really really from the bottom of my heart hope things look up for you. You are one of the greatest people i know( and ive told you this a many times before
)
Stay postive. You always make me smile, and those are the parts of you i love.
Holla at me, and let me know whats goin on with you.
Love
MB
trinityy:
whatkeeps me getting up is to show those i am a fighter and i am strong. to prove to those who thinki will give up that i won't. to prove to myself i can get through anything.
where am i going? well i don't know when the gift membership ends =/ so i thought it ended saturday
xoxo
trin
where am i going? well i don't know when the gift membership ends =/ so i thought it ended saturday
xoxo
trin
hmm,
i had liked sg for venting on bs, and because the community,
the community doesnt seem as close, and the ventin is mistaken. so i will probably not update with shit anymore. laters.
i had liked sg for venting on bs, and because the community,
the community doesnt seem as close, and the ventin is mistaken. so i will probably not update with shit anymore. laters.
Nothing ever works out. Why do i feel that i must be nice to anyone and everyone? i hate being nice to people, but i feel i must, i dont know how to not be nice.
more of my shitty writing:
Born a star
in my parents eyes
but reality never lies
disfigured from the start,
had to have a lot of heart
denied all...
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more of my shitty writing:
Born a star
in my parents eyes
but reality never lies
disfigured from the start,
had to have a lot of heart
denied all...
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trinityy:
no writing is shitty!
corvinus:
Klu,
You should not be so self-involved.
Pain and suffering are not unique to your condition; rather, it is a Law of Life.
It is not that you do suffer; instead it is how you endure the suffering that is important.
You should not be so self-involved.
Pain and suffering are not unique to your condition; rather, it is a Law of Life.
It is not that you do suffer; instead it is how you endure the suffering that is important.
i found some stuff i wrote around the time i found out my wife was leaving, wanna hear it,
here it goes:
You were all i wanted
Everyday i was haunted
there was nothing i could do
felt strangled when i talked to you
my mind went numb
never felt so dumb
heart felt pressure that crushed
felt nauseous and turned flushed
felt like a...
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here it goes:
You were all i wanted
Everyday i was haunted
there was nothing i could do
felt strangled when i talked to you
my mind went numb
never felt so dumb
heart felt pressure that crushed
felt nauseous and turned flushed
felt like a...
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trinityy:
relapse?
what did she say after you told her all of this?
i hope everything gets better babe.
xoxo
trin
what did she say after you told her all of this?
i hope everything gets better babe.
xoxo
trin
juno106:
relapse?
I really liked the writing you did, I could actually see it beeing used in a song or something.
I really liked the writing you did, I could actually see it beeing used in a song or something.
i am somewhat in disarray, i felt hopeless and the same time hope. why do i set myself up. i must be stronger. i seriously hate it when all the ppl in my life do better when i am not there.
i think i have a problem of falling in love with friends, i dont want to be in that barren friendship badland. maybe i...
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i think i have a problem of falling in love with friends, i dont want to be in that barren friendship badland. maybe i...
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juno106:
yeah I find depressing music just makes me feel even wores....
the thing with the Ex sounds messy... sorry to hear.
Remember life is constant ups and downs. Personaly I've have a really bad year.... I"m really looking farward to next year.
the thing with the Ex sounds messy... sorry to hear.
Remember life is constant ups and downs. Personaly I've have a really bad year.... I"m really looking farward to next year.
trinityy:
love you too
xoxo
xoxo
Did anyone notice the girl on the show the amazing race rockin the SG boy beater? i was almost excited when i saw her rockin it.
i feel a bit better, i think i needed to vent from the things goin on right now. Thanks to everyone who commented. i was being unusually pissed off that day. i guess that is how i feel sometimes....
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i feel a bit better, i think i needed to vent from the things goin on right now. Thanks to everyone who commented. i was being unusually pissed off that day. i guess that is how i feel sometimes....
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trinityy:
happy thanksgiving!!!!!!
hope all is well
trin
xoxox
hope all is well
trin
xoxox
mamabunny:
Happy Thanksgiving!
Love,
Lindsey
Love,
Lindsey
i watched yet another movie the other day that made me think.
a person in the movie said insanity is trying the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
i am at that point where i am lost, i do not know what else to try. i am past the why bother stage, past the lets try it a different way, i am...
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a person in the movie said insanity is trying the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
i am at that point where i am lost, i do not know what else to try. i am past the why bother stage, past the lets try it a different way, i am...
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mamabunny:
hey klu! dont be so hard on yourself!
Some people love you!
Some people love you!
phoebus:
Klu. Having a bad year in Korea is no reason to wish Iraq or Afghanistan on yourself, man. Trust me on this.
Try to relax a little man, but--much more importantly--try not to be so hard on yourself. People in life are gonna try to take their share of shots at you, so don't add to the barrage, man.
Have you taken your mid-tour yet? If not, I think it's an excellent reason to save up some cash and go on a trip around the Pacific Rim for a month. See some new stuff, meet people, go all-out carefree for a while, you know?
Try to relax a little man, but--much more importantly--try not to be so hard on yourself. People in life are gonna try to take their share of shots at you, so don't add to the barrage, man.
Have you taken your mid-tour yet? If not, I think it's an excellent reason to save up some cash and go on a trip around the Pacific Rim for a month. See some new stuff, meet people, go all-out carefree for a while, you know?