kittyinabox

yea, we should hit up cafe netherworld sometime. i havent gone for coffee in a very long time, i miss doing that. unfortunately tusedays and tursdays are the only days that i dont work. unless you wanna meet after 10ish itll have to be on those days. i think im working too much..

i think if anything im a slightly broken record. my goal is to move out and learn as i go, but sometimes i keep hitting a snag and i find myself where i was again. takes a huge bump (kick in the pants) to get me back on track sometimes.

tarot cards eh? ive always been intrigued by those things.. i should pick up my own set of cards and start doing that too. the last time someone did a reading for me was 4ish years ago, and the kid was right on. he was part of a group of pagans from ireland or scotland. cant remember, think it was celtic? if anyone was a true pagan it was him.. wierd stuff happened around him, it was hard to not notice it.

as for the books, the major one is a book on how to code for games. i think its being done in C Sharp..? but my friends are dong the coding and another guy is doing the writing. they also wanted a supplimental game to go along with the book to illustrate the points in the book. thats where i come in. im responsible for creating nearly all the computer graphics for the book. enviornmental design through character design.. the works. the other book is a lot less serious. some of my other friends that i role play with once in a blue moon are in the process of making their own rpg. they just need someone to make pictures of guns and vehicles and such. i havent even started that one yet..

i was/am an artist.. i used to draw all the time, but for some reason i just dont anymore. not 100% sure why. but, i had a photo class a couple years back and fell in love with that kind of art. this xmas my parents got me a digital SLR camera so i can get back into it without worrying about developing and printing costs. i can go right to my computer. i should be getting a new lens in a couple weeks, and ill be able to start taking pics again

hows the hunt for a worthy grad school going? have they all got back to you yet? dont let your brain get the best of you, you seem to have real dedication and people will notice that.

So...it was a key that punctured my tire....a whole key decided to have enough stability to stand in the middle of the road and only I could of ran it over....

My weekend was pretty fun, valentines day is always a bizzare weekend tho. Sounds like you had a pretty fun sunday night at the church and cafe netherworld. ive always wanted to go to that place, i remember seeing ads for it in the onion way back in highschool. their ads always had neil gaimans version of death drinking coffee. but for whatever reason actually going there always eluded me. im gonna have to fix that sometime... im normally in denver tusedays and thursdays. class ends at 630 and i dont have to work those days..

the churcs is a pretty interesting place, ive wanted to take some pictures there for a little while now, but i dont think theyd appreciate a random guy taking pics when everyones clubbing. sounds like you got caught off guard when you went upstairs. girls are vicious, and last time i checked those kinds of girls and gothier girls dont exactly get along...?

ive never limited myself to one sub culture or group, although sometimes ive wished that one specific group fit me best. ironically something ive always been proud of is that i find my own way in life as best i can and no one person can say theyre just like me. i like my feeling of uniqueness and independence, in fact i value it over most things in my life. so why do i want to be categorized into one group? i guess it just makes things simpler. although i know i wouldnt be happy for long being in one specific nitche inthe world. At any rate, being intrigued by so many different groups of inetrest has made me a more well rounded individual. i wouldnt trade that in for anything.

as for the excruiating noise of silence.. well that i understand all too well... the world around you becomes a raging hurricane and youre stuck in the eye. whats going on..? if youve never tried meditating, it may help. find a dark and quite place and just sit, watch your thoughts float by and try to clear your mind of everything in it. do it for a half hour or so and youd be surprised on how a void can reveal answers.

watch out for those aggressive keys...

[Edited on Feb 16, 2004 8:39PM]

mmm.. coffee.. that stuff has a reverse effect on me. normally it makes me tired.. starbucks frapuchinos are my current addiction. theyre so damn good and they actually wake me up in the morning.

im probably going to not take my ex up on the offer of going out. shes a bit too permiscuous, and by that i mean shes a raging hooker. shes got a habit of sleeping her friends away, and i think shes at the point where no one will talk to her. she said she goes to grizzly rose alone the majority of the time and just dances. but.. i probably will call her, just for the sake of catching up.

ive never gone to any sort of bondage gathering or even tried that for the most part. but, some aspects do really sound interesting. i think if i went to those things id either be horribly scared or horribly turned on. or both? ive never met anyone thats really willing to try that stuff. mostly lack of trust i think. somehow i dont think ill be going to that valentines day eve party, just a feeling

i graduate in less than a year now. i need to start getting a demo reel compiled or ill never get a job. its not because i dont know what im doing, its becuase i just dont get modivated. ill want to do stuff, but i end up realizing that ive been in my chair for a half hour daydreaming. i think im gonna start aterol again, just in smaller doses. 10 mg is way too much!

speaking of homework... prolly should get back to it! im learning the embedded code maya runs off of (MEL). sometimes it makes me want to run head first into a wall.. lots and lots of connections..

happy valentines day!!

I have no idea what happened saturday night. thats the way it needs to be every once in a while! all is going well for me, im getting a new stereo for my car tommorow if i get up early enough.. sorry to hear about your car! that sucks waiting around for lazy city boneheads to de ice roads... for some reason i get the impression that you live very far out there.. my riced honda would be eaten alive by those ditches

so get this. sunday my old ex calls me after nearly a year of no communication. she wanted me to go to the grizzly rose with her. country music and myself just dont mix. at all. this has been the most random year for me. its hilarious!

goth nights always on sunday nights. some sort of ironly thing i guess. i havent gone clubbing in a long time, im losing my white boy dance moves. but! friday me and a couple friends are going to this valentines day party. $20 bucks gets you in and buys you all the booze you can drink. and i get to roll again. its gonna be sick! then, once my brain returns to reality i gotta really crack down on that vice we seem to have in common. i gotta get off my ass and make a portfolio so i can get a job in a year!

-good bands: fear factory, emergence (local EBM), spineshank, crossbreed, covenant, zeromancer

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hey! where are YOUR favorite pics!

life is much better when you do something you enjoy, isnt it? even if it is cranking out crazy mathematical proofs and whatnot. i cant wait until i get into real work for my field.

how was the death of onyx? i couldnt sucker my friends into going so i missed it hope they went out with a bang

Dude! Proofs to Stokes' theorem

Now you're just too cool. I remember thinking I should do those proofs, but then realised that one of them is rather trivial, while I just never had the motivation for the others.

Oh, and I know my code.

i should re read the lord of the rings. thats a damn cool book..

cant you retake that test and try for a better score? it seems unfair that one test can dictate your percieved worth. i also explored the potential merits of toaster sex/perversions. i gotta say, its not exactly my cup of tea. and i really advise unplugging the toaster....

damn.. sounds like youre gonna be going places pretty soon! hawaii is so nice, ive only been there once.. i shoud change that when i get a job. im sure something will come up.. economys doing good again.

those online tests are amusing... i dunno what a toaster perversion is, but i got that. next time im in the mood ill have to take a trip to my kitchen stupid people always piss me off, thats common knowledge. im not a goth tho the test said so!

onyx closes on the 7th.. im gonna have to drug my friends and make them go. wish i had gone there more now.. i thought the church also had a goth sunday? thanks for the encouraging words too. made me feel better

hey, youre back from the dead! good to hear from ya again. artsy goth eh? i wonder what kind id be.. sounds like you had fun with the astronomy meeting thing. last time i went to rock island it was a bunch of 16 year old hookers dancing on poles.. ill have to start going back there again if theyre playing non crap again.

dunno why im wasting time with the girlie. i like her, but im gonna call her on the bs. lets see what she does

im not sure what toaster sex would be... i got it too... im kinda scared to find out. stupid people piss me off too.. i dont need a test to tell me that! i got the 'not so goth'.. hehe im a goth in my own way, i just have drastically different tastes in clothig. when is onyx closing?? ive only been there once, none of my friends want to go there ill have to start hitting rock island and drag my lousy boulderite friends and make them wear makeup. itll be great