...do you ever find yourself suffering from silence?????You find your self victim to it.....It's incredibly loud....Of course you realize that it is your own silence.....You know there is noise from the nature outside, the people next door, the stereos in peoples cars....But, you swear you hear nothing and the loudness beats down on you like heavy air and the only thing you feel is tingly head of anxiety growing within.......................I dont know where to start......
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the churcs is a pretty interesting place, ive wanted to take some pictures there for a little while now, but i dont think theyd appreciate a random guy taking pics when everyones clubbing. sounds like you got caught off guard when you went upstairs. girls are vicious, and last time i checked those kinds of girls and gothier girls dont exactly get along...?
ive never limited myself to one sub culture or group, although sometimes ive wished that one specific group fit me best. ironically something ive always been proud of is that i find my own way in life as best i can and no one person can say theyre just like me. i like my feeling of uniqueness and independence, in fact i value it over most things in my life. so why do i want to be categorized into one group? i guess it just makes things simpler. although i know i wouldnt be happy for long being in one specific nitche inthe world. At any rate, being intrigued by so many different groups of inetrest has made me a more well rounded individual. i wouldnt trade that in for anything.
as for the excruiating noise of silence.. well that i understand all too well... the world around you becomes a raging hurricane and youre stuck in the eye. whats going on..? if youve never tried meditating, it may help. find a dark and quite place and just sit, watch your thoughts float by and try to clear your mind of everything in it. do it for a half hour or so and youd be surprised on how a void can reveal answers.
watch out for those aggressive keys...