I'd take another chance, take a fall Take a shot for you And I need you like a heart needs a beat But it's nothing new, yeah yeah

5

So basically, I'm an asshole. Or better yet, I'm being a dick so I've been told. I don't have this coping well thing down yet. I get a birth shitty news and BAM! Crazy bitch.

I guess I'm just trying to give people the opportunity to "walk away". There's someone I look forward to talking to everyday. I don't have the balls or willpower to tell them yo stop talking to me, just more so giving them an easy out. I'd rather them be too pissed off to talk to me, than me shutting them out.

Unfortunately that plan backfired, resulting in them calling me out on being a dick.

I'm sorry.

I guess one good thing about this is the weightloss. I used to work out tons to get to this point, but all these treatments result in hurling!!!!

Interesting comparison pic. Yeah I'm proud. Fuck off.

I'm calling it a night, before I say something else I regret.

Sorry,

Kirbs

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elkcrazy32:
@_sneaks_ i can be pretty perceptive at times :)
abjester:
I have spent my life pushing people away and I got so used to people accepting and moving on I didnt even realize it was bad, I thought of it as a cleansing routine for everyone so that they could get past my crap and I could find fresh acceptance that hadnt gotten bored of me yet! Then one day I made some REAL friends and when I pushed they pushed back, harder,  and I started to grow.... my friends as few as they are can be described as "true" friends and they have created me, nurtured me, and continue to support me as I move forward! Sometimes a friends job is to be the moments enemy, to tell us what we NEED to hear not what we think we WANT to hear.

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