So, this is a recap of my crazy, depressing, happy, exhausting, & relaxing week!
First of all, I started back at the gym. Against doctors orders of course, but I wasn't (still ain't) happy in my own skin. It seems to be paying off. I know it's only been a couple weeks, but I'm just overall more confident.
My radiation is taking a toll on me, and just yesterday I learned I'm starting chemoradiation. It's a combo basically. I'm terrified fir chemo, but the radiation just isn't cutting it. Usually they start chemo first, but my oncologist believes doing both will work, and cancel surgery out. I suppose the positive of this, is that I'm off Monday now? Lol only positive I can come up with right now.
I fucked up my centre back last weekend putting on my coat, & Wednesday I fucked up my upper back opening a door. I've been in agony ever sense. The pain has been keeping me up at night, which normally would piss me off, but I have a friend in a different time zone (5.5 hours behind) that's been amazing support. He's been not only all ears, but not giving me bullshit responses.
Ever since I got sick, the people closest to me have changed. Babied me as such. He hasn't. Mostly we talk about everything, but. I'm generally super uncomfortable in my own skin, this dude makes me feel perfect. Gosh shouldn't talk about him too much, he'll start feeling special or something ;).
My work week has been mentally draining. Not the customer service aspect, but dealing with management. I feel I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Without going into details, I'm being put in a very uncomfortable situation, by my manager. We have no HR, and my boss(owner of business) is the reason I can't quit. He's amazing, but his loyalties lie with my manager, as he's family.
I'm painting a TARDIS closet in my house, and it's SLOWLY coming together.
Today I went out in public, looking like a state, and I had 4 different people tell me I looked cute. No makeup+chucks+hooters shirt+cupcake hat= cute Kirbs! I'm never trying again. Lol
I'm actually comfortable in my skin today, gonna upload a few pics later of some with less clothing ;)
That's enough of me boring you to death.
Goodnight xo
-Kirbs
