So many things to look forward to... and none of them will come easy.
Well.
You know when the time has come to move on; you can feel it in your guts, even if your head doesnt want to listen. In my case, I find it hard to believe that Ive kept my eyes almost shut for so long. Somehow, Ive managed to deal with most of my demons these last few years (lots & lots of work there) and I feel stronger now than I probably ever felt in my life so far. This is a powerful feeling.
See, growing up is not all bad.
Now, that would be lying to pretend that it doesnt leave me emotionally drained at times. Then again, Ive spent most of my life on a rope, always on the edge of a fall, afraid to look down, afraid to look up, afraid to look behind me, afraid to look before me... but I kept on walking... and Im glad I still want to go on, to push myself further on. Because regret is not a word thats welcome in my book. Never was, never will be.
Giving up is like dying. You just suffer longer.
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I also want to add: heres a big thank you all for your wonderful comments on my previous entry, as this means a lot to me. I hope you can find all the love you need and more because you truly are wonderful people. I am honoured to be able to call you friends. I know those last entries have been quite intimate; its strange, I feel like talking to myself in front of everybody. Well, most of you know Im half-crazy anyway
Much
+ summer smiles 
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PS: some new pics added for anybody whos interested... Dont expect to see any monuments, though
... and if you're bored, join my group. Then I can be the one looking into you
Well.
You know when the time has come to move on; you can feel it in your guts, even if your head doesnt want to listen. In my case, I find it hard to believe that Ive kept my eyes almost shut for so long. Somehow, Ive managed to deal with most of my demons these last few years (lots & lots of work there) and I feel stronger now than I probably ever felt in my life so far. This is a powerful feeling.
See, growing up is not all bad.
Now, that would be lying to pretend that it doesnt leave me emotionally drained at times. Then again, Ive spent most of my life on a rope, always on the edge of a fall, afraid to look down, afraid to look up, afraid to look behind me, afraid to look before me... but I kept on walking... and Im glad I still want to go on, to push myself further on. Because regret is not a word thats welcome in my book. Never was, never will be.
Giving up is like dying. You just suffer longer.
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I also want to add: heres a big thank you all for your wonderful comments on my previous entry, as this means a lot to me. I hope you can find all the love you need and more because you truly are wonderful people. I am honoured to be able to call you friends. I know those last entries have been quite intimate; its strange, I feel like talking to myself in front of everybody. Well, most of you know Im half-crazy anyway
Much
+ summer smiles
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PS: some new pics added for anybody whos interested... Dont expect to see any monuments, though
... and if you're bored, join my group. Then I can be the one looking into you
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razorpsych:
she's not back yet. couple of weeks, but i'm probably going to end up charity jaunting with her. wasn't sure what to make of your entries but that's what they are there for isn't it? to write whatever you're feeling. you seem happy though.
juliana:
