killerspike

Not a great day yesterday...today as I sit and think about it, it is useless to sit and think about it. I could have dazzled my new agent but I didn't because I was thinking too much and should have just done a cold monologue right then. I know my acting coach is going to rake my ass over hot coals for not doing just that. Bad enough, now I am sitting here thinking of what I could have done was so disturbing that now I feel like shit. That's what happens when you sit and think for too long. Best to just up and do it. Now I need to calm myself and move on.

Things are slow with work meaning that I don't have any work till tomorrow. This may put the screws on me as the next paycheck I get will be as small as this one and I still need parts for my motorcycle. Another "No Christmas" for anyone on my list. I am just a fat lazy cat right now and I need a hair cut really badly.

Time to work on other things to get me back into the creative mood and hope I can stay there for awhile. Next week I start building sets and working at the studio (for no pay of course,) then next month for a week the cameras roll and I had better be ready. Well at least this bout of insecurity will play well for my character. I don't want to lose that but I also don't want it in my daily fucking life either.

Help me save the world...