why do I seem to never be able to sleep? I run all day long and when it comes time to sleep, I just sit, wide awake. it is not that she is not here anymore, but that she will never be back. I need my space but that was too much for her. now I have lost one of my best friends, and all in a moment. Now I must gather my strength and regain myself. eventually I will be happy again. until then. I will stay awake.