khoos

I've decided to become an alcoholic.
I think it would help my career as an artist.
And I think I need to experience something more passionately depressing and less of this dispassionately depressing stuff...
I want to paint.
I NEED to paint.
But it's midnight and I have to work in the morning.
I hope this need comes back tomorrow night. When I can actually stay up all night painting.
I miss it.
I miss expressing myself like that.
I miss expressing myself.