So, that's that. I left that entry up as long as I could stand... just to not let go of it. But, eventually, I had to.
Things aren't good.
Work isn't good. I'm not doing the price change this week, they're training someone else, whom I like, and don't mind learning to do it, but... why? They talked to me about moving to full time. Why are they so slow about things? Let's just do it, and then move on. Not all this "we'll have to see" crap. In fact, I'm actually spending some days in the Specialty department this week, where I was originally hired over a year ago. I'm opening there tomorrow, by myself... it's sure great that I don't have a fucking clue what to do over there. I feel useless in the specialty department. There's a reason I don't do it anymore, which wasn't my decision.
Friends are not good. I don't really have any, save one, and he's leaving at the end of the week. Then there's always Bob, my ex, who drives me crazy, and El, my former best friend who keeps harrassing me for being a terrible friend and person. I really, really need someone. None of this helps.
School isn't great. I got into my classes... a telecourse history class, a self-paced bowling class with my mom, and... well, the psych class my mom wanted me in was miraculously full, so I'm going to waste my time in a sculpting class. I've never tried it before... I thought it might be fun to learn.
Chris... well, I can't imagine anything happening there. He always did want me when he couldn't have me. I haven't even heard from him. Someone make him love me, kay?
I say I need someone, but of course I still have Danny. I always have Danny, and he's the most important thing in the entire world. I took the most adorable picture of him today, it's up in My Pics now.
Have a better day than I am, guys.
Things aren't good.
Work isn't good. I'm not doing the price change this week, they're training someone else, whom I like, and don't mind learning to do it, but... why? They talked to me about moving to full time. Why are they so slow about things? Let's just do it, and then move on. Not all this "we'll have to see" crap. In fact, I'm actually spending some days in the Specialty department this week, where I was originally hired over a year ago. I'm opening there tomorrow, by myself... it's sure great that I don't have a fucking clue what to do over there. I feel useless in the specialty department. There's a reason I don't do it anymore, which wasn't my decision.
Friends are not good. I don't really have any, save one, and he's leaving at the end of the week. Then there's always Bob, my ex, who drives me crazy, and El, my former best friend who keeps harrassing me for being a terrible friend and person. I really, really need someone. None of this helps.
School isn't great. I got into my classes... a telecourse history class, a self-paced bowling class with my mom, and... well, the psych class my mom wanted me in was miraculously full, so I'm going to waste my time in a sculpting class. I've never tried it before... I thought it might be fun to learn.
Chris... well, I can't imagine anything happening there. He always did want me when he couldn't have me. I haven't even heard from him. Someone make him love me, kay?
I say I need someone, but of course I still have Danny. I always have Danny, and he's the most important thing in the entire world. I took the most adorable picture of him today, it's up in My Pics now.
Have a better day than I am, guys.
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I am the same way with frineds. I only have a few. I am just horrible about nurturing those relationships. It will get better. I bet you make some good frineds at school.
That is a cute pic! It almost doesn't look real. The colors are so vibrant and amazing.