kerr41

Some days I wonder how I'm going to make it through this year. I'm so tired of this and there are still months and months to go. I can't tell Chuck how I feel. He has enough to worry about without knowing how fucking hard this is for me. This has been a really bad night. I feel like I'm going to shatter into a million pieces.

The day started out ok. I got a lot of work done in the apartment building, but then I had to come back into my apartment. I was fine. I was lying on the couch watching a movie & then I was in tears. I've been roaming around the apartment doing nothing. I'm just restless, going from room to room, posting on the boards every once in a while, watching a little t.v.

I know it's only temporary - I'll feel better tomorrow. I thiink I just have to say it. I have to get it out of my system.