Ok...Time for an update:
As you can tell, I have not checked out. Thought things were finally looking up and I could do the things I need to get done. Was spending time w Melissa-the ex prior to my most recent ex. Thought things were going smoothly and great with us-taking it slow, as we are both cautious and wounded. She calls me last night at work and askes if we could talk later-when I get home from work. My first thought was "What's wrong?" She says she needs to talk w me and it has nothing to do with what I have done, etc...just needs to talk. She comes over and she tells me she thinks she is pregnant-but not by me. She said it was a one time thing and that she just needed to "Clean the pipes", etc. She asks me to help her abort it if she is because I know of how to do that herbally and naturally. I said I would help her. Told her I have personal issues with that because I have helped too many people do that and I swore I would not do that again. But I made a promise to her. I even told her I would adopt the child if she wanted to have it. She said she appreciated the thought, and would let me know. She calls me this morning to say that she is not pregnant because she started today "with a vengance." I am still upset because obviously I care more for her on a different level than she cares about me. I am really hurt even though we have not discussed being mutually exclusive, etc. I have had my heart broken too many times lately and now it is again by her. The only reason I started dating my now ex-wife is because when she left her boyfriend she went straight to another guy-not me. I needed attention and love and so I dated the ex and we were married. Now it appears she skippped past me to another again. I do not know what to do or to say to her. Do I tell her of these feelings, does she already know and too afraid to hurt me? What do I do? I have realized that I have had feelongs for her for the past 8 years and that I have never told her the whole of it. We say "I love you, etc" to each other-but I think on her part it is more of a platonic thing-friend think than is my part. Any advice?
As you can tell, I have not checked out. Thought things were finally looking up and I could do the things I need to get done. Was spending time w Melissa-the ex prior to my most recent ex. Thought things were going smoothly and great with us-taking it slow, as we are both cautious and wounded. She calls me last night at work and askes if we could talk later-when I get home from work. My first thought was "What's wrong?" She says she needs to talk w me and it has nothing to do with what I have done, etc...just needs to talk. She comes over and she tells me she thinks she is pregnant-but not by me. She said it was a one time thing and that she just needed to "Clean the pipes", etc. She asks me to help her abort it if she is because I know of how to do that herbally and naturally. I said I would help her. Told her I have personal issues with that because I have helped too many people do that and I swore I would not do that again. But I made a promise to her. I even told her I would adopt the child if she wanted to have it. She said she appreciated the thought, and would let me know. She calls me this morning to say that she is not pregnant because she started today "with a vengance." I am still upset because obviously I care more for her on a different level than she cares about me. I am really hurt even though we have not discussed being mutually exclusive, etc. I have had my heart broken too many times lately and now it is again by her. The only reason I started dating my now ex-wife is because when she left her boyfriend she went straight to another guy-not me. I needed attention and love and so I dated the ex and we were married. Now it appears she skippped past me to another again. I do not know what to do or to say to her. Do I tell her of these feelings, does she already know and too afraid to hurt me? What do I do? I have realized that I have had feelongs for her for the past 8 years and that I have never told her the whole of it. We say "I love you, etc" to each other-but I think on her part it is more of a platonic thing-friend think than is my part. Any advice?
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hope your ok