I am just doing a blog update, just chilling with an old friend who moved to Australia for 2 years and, is now back working in the UK but wishes to eventually permanently live & work abroad.
He achieved a lot, we met at a music school that I eventually worked at after attending as a student playing trumpet/singing/acting for some time oh and dabbling in playing the recorder and saxophone and whatnot, nicking sweets from the tuckshop and the usual child bullshit.
Ended up being a student teacher, earned a decent pay for a saturday morning's work. It was a lot of fun and i had a good impact on Sam's life and for that I am thankful. He actually got off his ass and got out of this place like i always told everyone i taught, see the world why you can before it goes to shit!
In all honesty it's been nostalgic as hell seeing him again. I miss the simple life of a young girl who wasn't attractive at all had all the brains she could want and as I grew up i suppose i lost that part of me, the part that was happy exactly the way i was thinking only of wanting a sunny afternoon & to sing infront of a 1000 people (which i did achieve). I am always going to be the ugly chubby trumpet player at heart and I am intelligent. I have just grown out of that cuteness and am a total and utter KLUTZ nowadays!
Hearing all his crazy stories, fishing, being homeless living in a tent for 2 months, all the animals and the people he met along his journey, it truly is self discovery and though we can't all afford 1 or 2 gap years he only went out there with 700quid to his name, earnt and spent 1000's whilst out there. Even though he came back with not a penny to his name he has all of those memories & skills which has now got him a good job for now.
It makes me think positively about my career, the fact i am still pushing myself even though right now my back is on fire & I wish i could get a new spine!
I know now that no matter how hard life gets you can always survive, i always know there are people worse off and I try to be grateful for what I have but we humans take advantage of what we have without even knowing and I need to stop doing that.
I am currently cutting my painkiller intake down = I want to have my driving license by the time i turn 22 in July.
I cannot do that on strong muscle relaxants but I am telling you now this is a horrid pain!
I know it'll get easier, hoping my body may strengthen if i walk & try to exercise and that my pain thresh-hold will heighten or go up (don't really know how to put it)
Seeing old friends doing so well makes me even more determined to push myself forwards with my career plans & my aspirations and not let a stupid back injury get in my way at such a young age.
Bit of Nostalgia on a Tuesday eh!
