So I’m an alcoholic, a functioning one at least but still an alcoholic, I’ve been in two minds whether or not to seek help about it for about 4 years now but I guess I’ve always been too scared to straight up admit it to a doctor or whoever it is you tell this kind of thing to. The reason I’m...
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gypsyraelynn:
Congratulations on completing the hardest part of beginning to look for help; acknowledgement. Most people wouldn't dare admit their toxic habits or entertain the idea of searching for help. My advice is to continue being aware and reminding yourself that you're strong enough to one day search for help. Give yourself lots of self care, silence and nature. :) Sometimes you can even heal yourself without reaching out to professionals.
kcaz370:
Thank you so much, I was getting better til my dog passed away a couple months ago, then I fell off the wagon again, I’m slowly returning the good point of not needing a drink everyday but it’s been a long and arduous process, thanks again

I’m feeling good today, things are getting better for me mentally, not so much financially but emotionally I’m on the up and up, taking in the little things, going for more walks and enjoying the air and sunshine as the days get longer, it’s nice to not feel like a vampire now like I was during winter.

Things are getting better I think, we had to take my cat to the vet yesterday just for her yearly checkup and vaccination and what have you so that was all fine. The biggest issue my fiancée and I had was returning so soon after we had to put our little man down and to make that emotional matters even harder we were in the...
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Well it’s been a minute ay, and it seems I only feel compelled to post when I’m down and feeling like it’s a particularly tough time in my life. So my time so far this year really hasn’t changed from my posts earlier, same shitty financial situation (bank account is constantly moving in reverse), still supporting my fiancé for the most...
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avrora:
ohh I am so sorry for this!
kcaz370:
Thanks guys

Well I completed my first week of trade school last week, I thought things would be different when I got back to work, that I might start learning the trade in there to learn and not continue to do busy work and random tasks all day. I was wrong. This week that’s all I’ve done, I asked my boss when I was going...
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It’s been a while, I know no one reads my posts but it’s nice to write my feelings sometimes, I have have trouble putting my feelings into words that I can speak, I’ve always found it easier to convey what I mean through writing. Anyway, things haven’t been great, my fiancé and I have been arguing more about money and me...
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Well, 2018. It’s already off to a shit start, nmy fiancée has been in the application process for a new job the last 6 weeks, a job that would change our lives if she got it. She found out today she didn’t get it however and now I don’t know what we are going to do. I can’t keep supporting her...
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Why

Jesus I hit the jack daniels hard tonight, half a litre in a couple of hours, plus the beers I had earlier. Why do I do this, every time I drink the stuff I feel depressed and like I want to cry, that’s probably why actually. It’s been a while since I cried, over a year in fact, I’m probably due. The...
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It’s over now, they’ve gone home, life can finally return to normal, I can get some errands done and get into losing some weight. Should be good, bring on the new year

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This is the 3rd day of my in laws down staying with us, god damn. It wouldn’t be so bad if the house we are renting was a bit bigger but it’s not, it’s tiny. Fitting 5 people into an essentially 2 bedroom 1 study home is no easy feat, our lounge has become a makeshift bedroom with a giant inflatable mattress...
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Well here it is folks, Christmas Eve is upon us once more, where has the year gone. Personally I’ve had a lot of changes this year, the biggest one being a career change, I’m now an apprentice finally at the ripe old age of 25. Tomorrow I’ll be having Christmas with my dad and his girlfriends family along with my fiancée and...
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To most people Christmas is a great time, for me I hate it. I hate having to spend a lot of money that I don’t have on people who don’t appreciate it, I hate being pulled in multiple directions by family members but most of all I hate the disappointment that this time of year inevitably brings. Every year since I’ve graduated...
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