kaos

Ugh... I wish I people couldn't read what I wrote until days after I wrote it and it's been proof read a million times. But I don't delete things I've wrote, as much as it sucks.

(heres my undeleted edit) I've pushed Tyler away since I've read/seen/heard what he thinks about his ex... I know it kills him but I can't help it. Seriously... I can't stand for people to touch my ears and face... I got over that with him, I loved it... but since all this shit, it appauls me. I cringe. I feel bad because I shouldn't even know all this aparently... here's my blog from earlier... (end of undeleted edit)


Arrrgh... I'm so frustrated. It's due to my own noseyness though but now it bothers me!...

A while back I was looking for a pic on my bf's computer and found a video of him and his ex gf...

Ok, that wouldn't be as bad as it is to me if he hadnt made a big deal of a good friend of ours dating her and such. He's so caught up in what shes doing now. (drunken insert... one of our best friends pretty much stole this girl from him... he was in love with her and devistated over the whole incident, now she "annoys" him")

To top it off, he was transfering stuff to external hard drive on his comp yesterday and theres all this "***** loves *****" shit and stuff.... ugh...

To top off things I shouldn't have seen... he and I started dating around Christmas... weeeeell there was a message in January that was some chick that he had talked to asking if I was as hot as her and him saying "No, you're, like, supermodel hot"... I know I'm no supermodel but that hurt... I shouldn't have seen this stuff but it was in his computer transfer. Now I feel like shit for seeing it... ugh... this is a bad day...

UGH... I think I'm drunk and crazy reading things I shouldn't ... either way, kill me.

xoxox