meh its the funeral tomorrow (technically today, 1am and all that )i think it wil be ok tbh my ex is coping very very well but thats him, he internalises everything, thats why ive been sooo 'talk to me if u need to' and 'im here for you, u know that dont you' i dont want him to go thru this on his own. meh he`ll be ok im sure (i hope) another good thing about tomorrow is that my rents are going with me too, i really didnt wanna go on my own, but my rents and my ex`s rents were practially inlaws (we were together 7 years)
things like this make you think silly things, and i have to admit i thought i wanted to get back with my ex, for about erm 3 hours then decided i was being silly, and that i had thought about breaking up with him for a year b4 i actually did, and it was for good reasons too.....i doubt he would want me back anyway....i miss him sometimes, not the realtionship itself but just the way we talk to each other and how we can both have totally conflicting views on somthing and have really long conversations and debates about it that dont ever turn into arguments coz we respect each others view...not like my current boyf......he tends to get over oppinionated and assumes hes right and im wrong, when there is no realy right or wrong.......or maybe we just dont understand each other........thats another thing....my ex understands me, well at least i feel he does. i miss that too, i sometimes worry im never gonna meet anyone like him ever again, someone who compleatly understands me and accepts me.....i dont feel i have that in my current realtionship, but im hoping it will develope with time. its only been 5 months, and i was with my ex 7 years......but it was there from the start, it didnt have to develop, it was just there.
damn this is getting a bit too heavy for me now lol.....meh im just here pouring my heart out. lol
man, 2morrow is gonna be hectic!
9:00am - wake up, have shower, apply fake tan
10:00am - find some shoes to go with dress 4 funeral and dress for going out tonight
12:00 - get train to rents house
1:00pm - consider getting ready for funeral
2:30 - arrive for funeral
3:00 - funeral
*i have no idea how long funerals last*
6:00 - aim to be back from funeral for 6, as i have to get to manchester to meet up with boyf
7:00 - meet boyf, get changed if poss....drink the night away!
so ya this means im gona be uber stressed out all day i rekon, and maybe feeling a bit upset at times, gah!
*****in other news*****
i need glasses!!!! oh noes!!!! Yes its finally happend
i balme my over use of computers! i went for a test today and i pick up my specs on monday.....im looking frward to it tho but i do look like a secretary no matter what style i wear lol much to the delight of my boyf, hes got a thing for the secretary look lol
so next time im in SG chat i should be wearing um coz i need um for computer and watching telly
right gonna shuddup now coz i gotta be u early tomorrow
things like this make you think silly things, and i have to admit i thought i wanted to get back with my ex, for about erm 3 hours then decided i was being silly, and that i had thought about breaking up with him for a year b4 i actually did, and it was for good reasons too.....i doubt he would want me back anyway....i miss him sometimes, not the realtionship itself but just the way we talk to each other and how we can both have totally conflicting views on somthing and have really long conversations and debates about it that dont ever turn into arguments coz we respect each others view...not like my current boyf......he tends to get over oppinionated and assumes hes right and im wrong, when there is no realy right or wrong.......or maybe we just dont understand each other........thats another thing....my ex understands me, well at least i feel he does. i miss that too, i sometimes worry im never gonna meet anyone like him ever again, someone who compleatly understands me and accepts me.....i dont feel i have that in my current realtionship, but im hoping it will develope with time. its only been 5 months, and i was with my ex 7 years......but it was there from the start, it didnt have to develop, it was just there.
damn this is getting a bit too heavy for me now lol.....meh im just here pouring my heart out. lol
man, 2morrow is gonna be hectic!
9:00am - wake up, have shower, apply fake tan
10:00am - find some shoes to go with dress 4 funeral and dress for going out tonight
12:00 - get train to rents house
1:00pm - consider getting ready for funeral
2:30 - arrive for funeral
3:00 - funeral
*i have no idea how long funerals last*
6:00 - aim to be back from funeral for 6, as i have to get to manchester to meet up with boyf
7:00 - meet boyf, get changed if poss....drink the night away!
so ya this means im gona be uber stressed out all day i rekon, and maybe feeling a bit upset at times, gah!
*****in other news*****
i need glasses!!!! oh noes!!!! Yes its finally happend
i balme my over use of computers! i went for a test today and i pick up my specs on monday.....im looking frward to it tho but i do look like a secretary no matter what style i wear lol much to the delight of my boyf, hes got a thing for the secretary look lol
so next time im in SG chat i should be wearing um coz i need um for computer and watching telly
right gonna shuddup now coz i gotta be u early tomorrow
funerals are no fun, generally they dont last that long.
Hope things get better for you, way to be the good friend and be there for the ex.
oh and btw looking forward to seeing this hot secretary look