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So the last couple days at work have largely consisted of me sifting through dozens of photos from Haiti and deciding what we can and cannot run in the newspaper. Most you can't. It's horrible by even my jaded standards. Streets covered with hundreds of bodies, Children. Everything you could possible imagine but don't want to. I'm glad my work week is over.

I did...
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Been doing well lately, though I find myself increasingly bored and sometimes pacing the halls at work. Been having problems sleeping as well. The sun is usually up by the time I finally get to that point. It makes an already strange way to live even stranger and more isolated.

I suppose I could try to find some sort of natural remedies to help, but...
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OK. So I can't complain about winter weather like people in some other parts of the country...but can we just go ahead and cancel winter already. I'm sick of the cold and sick of the snow.

Sick of work and the people there as well, but that's another matter altogether. In the end, sad as it is, I think I'd rather be running around the...
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Randomness: You know you're going out with a nerd when you call her "young padawan" and she giggles because she gets it. Not so nerdy when she says her favorite Star Trek captain is Spock...though technically he had to be one at some point considering his rise in ranks later on.

Wow. Geeky.

Randomness: You know you're going out with a nerd when she tells you she has a survival plan ready to go should a zombie apocalypse ever come to pass.

Don't know whether to laugh or jump for joy.

Had the last week off and have been under the weather for the last few days of it. My fault for being out in freezing rain one night, but I don't regret it because I had a nice dinner with a nice woman and I'm hoping to see her again. She's only 22 and I've already been lectured about that by one friend, but I...
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It's fucking cold and spitting snow outside, so I guess winter is finally creeping in. Makes me wish adults got snow days too.

Spent Thanksgiving working and chatting with people other than eating the usual stuff and dealing with family. A couple friends offered to bring me plates of food since they know I sometimes forget to eat anything at all, but I just sort...
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Still single. Went out on a date Sunday evening and didn't get back home until Monday afternoon, but most of the time was spent talking to someone who's in a really bad place right. Bad beyond anything I can really handle. I feel bad about it, but I had to be honest. Pretty much still puts my self-contempt at an all-time high though.

Can't sleep. May have met someone. Too early to say. Sometimes too scared to even consider it. I'm such a wrecked human being. Unworthy. Hopelessly neurotic.

It's weird times for me right now. I need a shoulder to lean on. An ear to listen. Or a wall to drive into at 100 miles per hour.

Not much to report this last week. Finally got over whatever sickness I was experiencing, though a slight cough still persists. Ran my section of the office most of the week and actually enjoyed it, if only because it kept me busy and my mind off of other things. Anything to help me avoid dealing with things, I suppose.

Picked up Modern Warfare II,...
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