Had all of last week off of work and really didn't do a whole lot of anything other than ignore my birthday as it came and passed. I see them as more of a kids thing anyway. Plus I'm still wrestling with a pretty deep depression that has drained me of all energy and pretty much zapped my communication skills. I find myself pushing the small circle of people around me away more and more.
When I say no one heard from me at all last week, I really mean it. Not one word. Not one email. Not on phone call answered. It's a strange time. Feels almost like 10 years ago, when I was at my worst.
I'm a stronger person now though. I'm trying to stay somewhat positive. I've been watching a lot of The Simpsons on DVD to perk me up, but I really wish my old therapist was still in the business. I don't want to break a new one in, but I'm getting the creeping feeling I might have to consider it. I just don't know if I'm ready to take that step yet.
When I say no one heard from me at all last week, I really mean it. Not one word. Not one email. Not on phone call answered. It's a strange time. Feels almost like 10 years ago, when I was at my worst.
I'm a stronger person now though. I'm trying to stay somewhat positive. I've been watching a lot of The Simpsons on DVD to perk me up, but I really wish my old therapist was still in the business. I don't want to break a new one in, but I'm getting the creeping feeling I might have to consider it. I just don't know if I'm ready to take that step yet.
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hellstorm:
it may not have happened by design....but you realized it did happen, and that is important. and that you want to change it.
bob:
Thank you SO much for your comment on Machete and I's multi Hot Mess. It really means a lot! 