I'm exhausted. It's late. I'm lonely and tired, which isn't the same as exhausted. Cold bed, even with my sheets as wrinkly as they are. I've felt really desirable over the past week, for some ungodly reason. Probably biological. Desirable and unwanted all in the same. Not sure how to correct this.
I keep writing and keep writing, I'm only doing it for myself at this point. My guitar needs new strings and I need to get to know it again. I only ever learned how to play "You Are My Sunshine" (the only reason I learned it was because my baby sister loves the song).
I need to get healthy, and by healthy I mean thin and sickly. That's just the female condition.
I'm exhausted. Did I say that already?
Into your arms, whoa, into your arms.. Sigh.
I need a lover's hug; my mother's hugs just aren't doing it for me lately.
All I can think is exhaustion and hate and sleep sedate, blah blah blah. Debt management mandate? I don't know what's going on in this country much any more.. I'm tuned out, maybe permanently. It doesn't matter either way. I want to be off the grid completely, uncharted and hidden. I'm exhausted.
Ugh.. Sleepy girl talk. This is how my thoughts scroll every which way across my brain-teleprompter most of the time. I'm probably the only one who understands what I mean by anything I say, haha. What an idiot.
I keep writing and keep writing, I'm only doing it for myself at this point. My guitar needs new strings and I need to get to know it again. I only ever learned how to play "You Are My Sunshine" (the only reason I learned it was because my baby sister loves the song).
I need to get healthy, and by healthy I mean thin and sickly. That's just the female condition.
I'm exhausted. Did I say that already?
Into your arms, whoa, into your arms.. Sigh.
I need a lover's hug; my mother's hugs just aren't doing it for me lately.
All I can think is exhaustion and hate and sleep sedate, blah blah blah. Debt management mandate? I don't know what's going on in this country much any more.. I'm tuned out, maybe permanently. It doesn't matter either way. I want to be off the grid completely, uncharted and hidden. I'm exhausted.
Ugh.. Sleepy girl talk. This is how my thoughts scroll every which way across my brain-teleprompter most of the time. I'm probably the only one who understands what I mean by anything I say, haha. What an idiot.
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Second, I understand where you're coming from. It's usually early in the morning when I think things like this. I'll wake up early, and think, "What am I going to do today? Will it matter if I do anything?"
It's a matter of just being human. And allowing space for those thoughts.