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I wish I wanted a wedding
I wish I weren't a whore
I wish I wanted a husband
Instead of wanting more.

So.. I've got a sob-worthy story for you guys.

Went to class, then to work, got off work, bought two pair of cheap jeans, got home, checked my student e-mail, now plotting suicide.

I got an e-mail from my "Resident Assisitant"--R.A.--more like Real Asshole. The e-mail said that while she was doing her health and safety check (by keying into my room while I was...
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I'm just updating for the sake of updating..

I miss you guys.

I'm so freakin' busy. I hate it.

Making good money, but not so good grades.. I'm hopefully getting my knuckles tatted up on Saturday.

I'm still working Monday through Saturday, going to class Monday through Friday before/in between working. Sigh.

Haven't had much time to keep in touch with anyone, which has been...
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Sometimes when I'm single and lonely, I wonder why it is but now I know. I don't think I'm meant to be loved by one person. As The Mamas & the Papas said, "You don't understand that a girl like me can't love just one man."

I'm going to drop out of here for a while. I think it will be better for everyone.

Will...
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Still working through Lolita post-reading. Ugh.


Buuut, fortunately, I'm off work today and I didn't go to class because FUCK THAT - it's cold outside!

I have to work tomorrow and it will be ridiculous. People are stupid and, therefore, find it pertinent to make their way all the way across town to our diner in order to eat chicken fried steak. FUCKING STUPID. Ugh,...
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Finished 'Lolita.'



Full of pain.

I think I might want to go into passive solar architecture at some point in my educational career. I'm really interested in the whole process of drawing up plans, buying some acreage, building a passive solar home, etc. It all seems really fascinating to me, I've recently found. I've found some simple plans that utilize passive solar techniques, but I think I would want to...
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I know you all must be on the edge of your seats waiting to hear what my tattoo idea for Saturday is.

It's pretty simple but it has at least three meanings, to my anyway.

I want to get the word 'KINGLESS' tattooed across my knuckles in red. Firstly, it means that I'm Atheist, as god is the king of heaven. Secondly, it refers to...
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Still reading "Lolita" and I love it.. It's quixotic and sad. I can relate to it in some strange ways. And by that I don't mean that I jerk it to pre-pubescent girls. I can relate to the yearning and the shame, along with the loneliness, the boredom. It's all there. It also has some funny bits in there, but I'm not sure many other...
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