justmee

I'm crying. Yeah.... just fucking great. Hanging out with my family will do this to a person. First thing... my mother is fucking insane. I'm not going to be like her, so I wont get into it. She's having problems with her husband. Actually, they've been having problems since they met, but yeah. We went to the dentist for my little sister, and she had to embarrass us by whining and crying, and telling everyone about it. The good thing is that I've scheduled a dentist appointment. I wont even tell you how long it's been.

Okay... so, I successfully ignore my mother, we get home, and then....

My little sisters recent ex-boyfriend comes over. They broke up because I guess he's been doing coke for the last six months. It made me really sad to see him, and I had to talk to him. Now, before you go picturing some crazy, wacky coke head who lives in the gutter... that's not him. He's a good looking, 18 or 19 year old black kid, with lots of style, who's a damn good baseball/football player, and NOT the person you'd expect to fall into that shit. So we were talking, he said he wasn't doing it anymore, that he wants to be with my sister, that he can forgive her for sleeping with someone else, and on and on.

Why I'm sad and crying is because I'm so confused. They really are good together. But I can't tell my little sister to be with someone who snorts fucking coke. And at the same time, if he needs help, I want to be there for him, but how?? I've never had to deal with this shit before. Yes, I've met a bunch of fucked up people, but they were always fucked up, and not friends.

I don't know. I'm going to watch The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown, and maybe it will make me smile and figure stuff out. Until then.....