Wake up drowning in tears.
I couldn't stop crying, I was half asleep and I didn't even know the real reason I was crying. It might have been because I am getting sick again, and I can't seem to stay healthy at all. I see the doctor too much and nothing gets better. I felt hot and cold and my throat hurts.
It could have... Read More
hi sweetie,
awe man. i know how you feel all too well. im sorry you are physically sick.. i am too, and a lot of it comes from my emotional unstable life.. if it's not one thing it's another.. i have a bf and everything that supposed to feel like im not alone but i always do. this isn't a feeling im not used to though. i have felt this way my whole life. i can be surrounded by people and still feel alone..
its really upsetting and it drains you physically, emotionally, mentally... every way possible.
All i can say is do the best you can for yourself... i KNOW its so hard xxxxxxx (big hugs)
what also doesn't help at least in my situation is that i dont have friends. i have family and stuff but not like girlfriends or anything :/
and weight yeah... i am not happy with my body at all. the last few years i gained some weight like, seriously out of the blue and i dunno why..and no matter what i do i can't get rid of it... again.. emotional shit...
Remember the world is huge and there ARE a lot of us that feel the same as you and hell, even thinking the same at the same time as you
That's so hard. I'm pretty much in the same situation. It's so fucking difficult with mental health problems as well - as if it's not depressing enough as it is. I just hope you and me get what we need soon. Yeah, job is a good start.
Boooo
Outside is my house, My house, Its a box.
In the ground is the sound my house makes.
Underground is where this sound shakes.
Rocking rolling magical earthquakes.
My room is a... Read More
I like those lyrics.nice pics too. your hair and that hoody is sweet. the hoody reminds me of freddy kruegers sweater. even the people with alot of friends feel lonely. its a natural occurence. it's what we do with these feelings that makes or breaks us. feel free to say hi anytime. i will be a friend.
If you feel ugly, then don't look in the mirror, look at what you are from the inside.
A seed in a pod, waiting to flower, waiting to push through all this decayed soil. But this struggle makes me thirsty to succeed. This hurt makes me hungry to love. I can smile at small things, rain, birds and trees. Look up at... Read More
Seriously, I'm sure you have some want to come to London, right? If I get a flat soon you can just staaaaay with meeeee, and I can delight in hosting hotel moi and it will be awesome. You can do sighteeing and shit on your own if you like and just come home to a wonderful homemade (curry paste and all!!) vegan curry and other vegan delights and I'll probably run a bath for you with rose petals and it will be the BEST PLACE TO STAY IN ALL OF LONDON BECAUSE I AM THE BEST HOST EVER. You will be so comfortable and want for nothing sound good? wish me flat.
Cool - first night: jalfrezi curry, with mango sorbet and plain paratha for pud. Second night: avocado, cucumber, asparagus sushi with all the trimmings and green tea sorbet for pudding. Third night: vegan roast - best tofu sausages ever with onion gravy, yorkshire puddings, stuffing and your favourite vegetables and roast potatoes with a spiced apple and berries strudel and soya cream for pudding.
I don't wanna be goofy and annoying so I'll tell you other meals I would like to feed you another time. Nice ideas! Don't forget breakasts of the beast beans on toast ever with best cocoa/mocha ever and american pancakes woo.
Seriously this site makes me feel uglier every time I look at it. I hate my fucking body so much, I cannot get over how much work I put into it and I'm still fucking disgusting.
I am in sever pain right now and the depression is full force. I'm alone, so I carved it into my skin.
This pain of loneliness, loveless, physical pain... Read More
>_<
i think youre pretty.
and your parents just suck for doing what they did and not being there for you.
youre a good person. youre an awesome person. if they cant see that then its their loss.
HEY!!! My love, do not think that way!!! You are so ridiculously beautiful it kinda kills me, for one. But also, you are not alone. Look how many people care about you! I care about you A LOT and Im just one!! My parents suck, too.. well moms is good now but I spent a lot of years without her in my life and I still dont speak to my father. Just makes you stronger. You can do it on your own and you'll do better than you would with them. No matter the situation, it's always how we deal with it and what we take from it that really makes is what it is. You CAN turn a shit story into a good one, I promise.
If you need to talk or vent, whatever, hit me up. Im here for you 100%!!!
I just drove back from Olympia (to Spokane) and it took forever, but it was beautiful. I was visiting my friend there and it's a fucking wonderful city. Very hippie/arty/vegan friendly. The forest and plants there are breath taking and I saw trees that brought me to tears.
Really had a fucking wonderful time, its good to go on adventures and have a friend... Read More
The doctor told me I have Tic douloureux Trigeminal Neuralgia.
It hurts very badly, like a shock to the head. During the night its the worst. All I can do is whimper and cry. I dont know why I end up with all this shit. It isn't fair. I'm already dealing with a shitty unstable living condition, poverty, mental illness, and now this. I... Read More
I thought I had problems, well I do but a tingly left arm finger from a motorcycle/bike accident/robbery is no migraine
But...I don't have bed bugs anymore.
The last few weeks I've been rather sick. They told me I have a bacterial infection in my throat, I'm taking medicine for it but the pain wont stop. First I couldnt eat or drink without extreme pain. Now I get nausea and it still hurts to swallow.
Last night my head started hurting really bad. And it continued to hurt all night. All I... Read More
hope you feel better soon hun. that sounds terrible. the only advice i can give is gargle salt water. it helps with bacterial throat infections.
and miso soup. miso soup is my hero when im sick.
I am entirely consumed by lonely sadness. Despair. I tried this time. I went out and I tried so hard, but I'm always missing by just a little. I can never quite hold on, never quite win. And what is my life now? Just the same empty shell, a girl alone in her head with nothing. Just like before. Just like always.
^_^
you make such pretty artwork.
and i would attack you with squeezin hugs too! then pick you up and kidnap you and force you to play videogames and drink coffee with me!.. just because im evil like that. lol
I thought I had problems, well I do but a tingly left arm finger from a motorcycle/bike accident/robbery is no migraine
awe man. i know how you feel all too well. im sorry you are physically sick.. i am too, and a lot of it comes from my emotional unstable life.. if it's not one thing it's another.. i have a bf and everything that supposed to feel like im not alone but i always do. this isn't a feeling im not used to though. i have felt this way my whole life. i can be surrounded by people and still feel alone..
its really upsetting and it drains you physically, emotionally, mentally... every way possible.
All i can say is do the best you can for yourself... i KNOW its so hard xxxxxxx (big hugs)
what also doesn't help at least in my situation is that i dont have friends. i have family and stuff but not like girlfriends or anything :/
and weight yeah... i am not happy with my body at all. the last few years i gained some weight like, seriously out of the blue and i dunno why..and no matter what i do i can't get rid of it... again.. emotional shit...
Remember the world is huge and there ARE a lot of us that feel the same as you and hell, even thinking the same at the same time as you
Boooo