jpuddin76

"I Was On A Mountain"
by
Hot Water Music.

I was hanging on by a little thread.
Just minutes before I was on a mountain.
I screamed "I can see all."
The ground broke from the sound.
It was all built on nothing.
And the pretty lights down below
Begged me to just let go;
To let myself be condemned
To start again.

I opened up my aching hands.
I went down like an avalanche.
I took with me the things I found.
I used them to help slow me down,
And start again.

Caution: the solid ground that you
Are on will slide from under you.


I don't have a lot to say, I am a bit overwhelmed. I have so much going on right now, pending divorce, family tragedy, PTSD...Where do I start? What comes first? I have had to re-prioritize and replan my entire life in a very short time.

The divorce is my lowest priority, I'll get to it when I damn well feel like it. I have been way too accomodating for way too long. I am trying for a humanitarian assignment back to Florida so I can move my folks there and take care them(they are both disabled). The other stuff will just take time.

I have good days and bad days. On good days I can actually smile and joke. On bad days...

I hope the few of you who read this are safe and well.