"I Was On A Mountain"
by
Hot Water Music.
I was hanging on by a little thread.
Just minutes before I was on a mountain.
I screamed "I can see all."
The ground broke from the sound.
It was all built on nothing.
And the pretty lights down below
Begged me to just let go;
To let myself be condemned
To start again.
I opened up my aching hands.
I went down like an avalanche.
I took with me the things I found.
I used them to help slow me down,
And start again.
Caution: the solid ground that you
Are on will slide from under you.
I don't have a lot to say, I am a bit overwhelmed. I have so much going on right now, pending divorce, family tragedy, PTSD...Where do I start? What comes first? I have had to re-prioritize and replan my entire life in a very short time.
The divorce is my lowest priority, I'll get to it when I damn well feel like it. I have been way too accomodating for way too long. I am trying for a humanitarian assignment back to Florida so I can move my folks there and take care them(they are both disabled). The other stuff will just take time.
I have good days and bad days. On good days I can actually smile and joke. On bad days...
I hope the few of you who read this are safe and well.
by
Hot Water Music.
I was hanging on by a little thread.
Just minutes before I was on a mountain.
I screamed "I can see all."
The ground broke from the sound.
It was all built on nothing.
And the pretty lights down below
Begged me to just let go;
To let myself be condemned
To start again.
I opened up my aching hands.
I went down like an avalanche.
I took with me the things I found.
I used them to help slow me down,
And start again.
Caution: the solid ground that you
Are on will slide from under you.
I don't have a lot to say, I am a bit overwhelmed. I have so much going on right now, pending divorce, family tragedy, PTSD...Where do I start? What comes first? I have had to re-prioritize and replan my entire life in a very short time.
The divorce is my lowest priority, I'll get to it when I damn well feel like it. I have been way too accomodating for way too long. I am trying for a humanitarian assignment back to Florida so I can move my folks there and take care them(they are both disabled). The other stuff will just take time.
I have good days and bad days. On good days I can actually smile and joke. On bad days...
I hope the few of you who read this are safe and well.
thanks for being so sweet.
good luck with the reassignment, it would be great to see the military come through for you.
hugs and good thoughts, always.