Sunday Jun 30, 2002

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i asked google "writing the names of god unified field theory" and it tried to sell me a book on controlling negative emotions by roy masters.
dia:
HAHAHAHAHHA! Thank you, you made me laugh OUT LOUD.
eris:
i wonder what your answer would have been if you posed the question to dick cheney?

Friday Jun 28, 2002

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today it is raining. i have a soundtrack:

The Confidential Agent

Take the velvet line for comfort
High above the water, feel disconnected and free
Tired of hopes that I just can't run from
I travel in secret, I know they're pursuing me

Morning that falls represents a weak link
After is after night's work is done
There's no sun, just a grey horizon
Hiding...
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Thursday Jun 27, 2002

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today is overcast: grey clouds are hanging low and there is a breeze blowing in diesel fumes and river smell. i slept about 12 hours - woke up to the sound of nail guns and a cat fight.

i have record reviews to write; not in the mood. i feel like brooding. not whoring.

i just remembered that i turned the ringer off on my...
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joyrider:
dia > you already are. guess the dia synonym.

t-blue: thanks so much; it means a lot coming from someone i consider a poet.
dia:
I'll find out when I come to Portland. I asked for leave of absence in the next week or two from work, so I can come see my best friend who lives up there. We're very on for coffee still I hope.

Tuesday Jun 25, 2002

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i shaved my head in a fit of heat madness about 30 minutes ago. i feel fierce! i am staring at myself in the monitor: shorn head, wireframe glasses, and a torn red teeshirt. feeling like a house party, looking like i should be holding a molotov cocktail.

things are good: i am meeting interesting people, thinking new thoughts, and jumping puddles i've spent three...
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dia:
I shaved my head once too (buzzed it really short anyways, not QUITE bald), and yes it was because I was feeling monastic. I was ready for changes. I shaved my whole body, right down to my arms... and yes! It felt fantastic!
binaryfiendsgone:
Yeah shaving my head has become a ritual for me. I mean I have been shaving my head for the last 7 years but if I need to reset or get something of my mind I just shave it even if I dont really need to badly and ahh I feel better. It is just such a release.

By the way I just wanted to tell you again how much I enjoy your poetry if I hadnt said it already.

Sunday Jun 23, 2002

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i can't help but feel like the line between night and day is becoming sharper in me, in my perceptions. there is a duality in me that, right now, is in synchronicity with the light/dark cycle. i said a bit more about this on dland.

i fell asleep about 7am on saturday morning. i had a strange dream. i was in the house of someone...
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joyrider:
you know, i am not really sure what it means. i was sort of irritated that i played by his rules since i was in a lucid state. wish i'd turned him into a hedgerow or something. ah well.

i didn't have much trouble with gravity's rainbow, but i haven't read much pynchon other than that - oh, and a collection of his early short stories. i have yet to make it 10 pages in to either Ulysses or Finnegan's Wake, though, if that makes you feel better. wink I'm flying through Nabokov's Bend Sinister right now; he is so, SO good. sigh. what i wouldn't give to write like that...
dia:
Nabokav (fuck my spelling) is my favourite writer of all time, along with Faulkner. Because of how deeply he goes into psyche, while writing so lushly. We've a bit in common. We could talk about the 5th dimension falling down and how God is.

Thursday Jun 20, 2002

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i highly recommend watching "pootie tang" while exremely stoned.

tipy-ti.
swingkitten:
sine yo pity on the runny kine!

Tuesday Jun 18, 2002

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okay. i put up a pic. it's sorta small, and i look sullen, but you get the idea.
eris:
*grin* you look like a leo with a piscies moon.
joyrider:
like an artsy pretentious egomaniac?

Sunday Jun 16, 2002

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it is a humbling thing when the kiss of a girl you just met sparks an epiphany that you'd been chasing for years, just out of reach.

thanks for the kiss + sighs, a. i owe you.
dia:
That's quite lovelysmile

Just telling you shh! The gnome incident is a big secret. But it sounds like you've secrets aplenty! Wonderful!!!
joyrider:
hm. gnomes are secretive, yes.

and yes i have secrets. some of them are delishious.

Saturday Jun 15, 2002

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it is safe to assume that (after catching me talking to the cat in tongues) my room mate is scared of me.
macbastard:
Thatts the way you want it friend...So they don't steal your side of thye appt. slowley.


Macrage

Wednesday Jun 12, 2002

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so drunk. stumbled 15 blocks up the street that starts with H that i can't remember, sweating, feeling the humidity drape itself between me and my jeans and tee-shirt. i'm watching headlights shine on plants and flowers and garbage cans and the 14-year-old asian kid that tried to score weed from me and right now i fucking love this place: roads rivers people plants cars...
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Friday Jun 07, 2002

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so my friend tyler has taken it upon himself to show me the good stuff in portland. yesterday, that involved a trip to movie madness to see the latex mugwamp.

first off, the mugwamp is big. he is dusty. entropy has been real hard on him - latex is rotting, paint peeling. so i'm looking up at him, and he's looking down at me, and...
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Wednesday Jun 05, 2002

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today was rough. i vented on my diarland journal, got pensive, rethought things, and wrote another entry. i am trying very hard to stay in the now. i've done an ok job of convincing myself to do so. for today.
erin:
i used to have a diaryland journal. they took it down cause i forgot my password. i lost a lot of cool shit. keep copies of that stuff if you like it, nothing is permanent.
joyrider:
v -> i've been thinking about that...losing everything i mean. i really should archive it. there's a few things i've written there that i'd like to keep. sorry about your site. i would've liked to have seen it.
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