so i went to the store today. this is the first time i have been to an actual grocery store in this silly little town that i now inhabit. i bought:
- butternut squash soy soup
- soy milk
- various whole veggies
- some boneless chicken in shiny cello wrap
- some mango juice (i thought of s5, too)
the bag boy looks at...
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- butternut squash soy soup
- soy milk
- various whole veggies
- some boneless chicken in shiny cello wrap
- some mango juice (i thought of s5, too)
the bag boy looks at...
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today was deeply weird. i ate a pot brownie last night around 11pm, and it didn't kick in until after 1am. thoroughly bad experience: my brain felt cotton-stuffed and my sense of balance was pretty wrecked. reminded me of sucking down robotussin in high school, which is sort of like watching the ads they run during soap operas on slow endless loops. blech.
the stress...
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the stress...
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suiciety:
not here. and the whereabouts of the bay area somewhere.
earplug6947:
to see mum live is to want to buy them a house or eat with them in the park. and like me, those guys stopped playing guitar rock after listening to a.twin. only with me substitute a.twin for mum or that damn squarepusher guy.
ever have a night where everything turns to perfect shit right before your eyes?
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i guess there's just some things that you don't need to tell your online journal. when really bad stuff happens i just fall away from everyone. trying to remember how things and people fit together is very hard.
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i guess there's just some things that you don't need to tell your online journal. when really bad stuff happens i just fall away from everyone. trying to remember how things and people fit together is very hard.
keith:
What's really weird is when everything seems all great and fine, and then some problem arises that had been there under the surface all along, turning everything to shit in an instant. Like your great day spoiled by the revelation of a bad check you wrote two weeks earlier.
i finally got around to watching "requiem for a dream." i am thinking too much and my stomach is hurting.
things haven't been right recently. i have been attacking everything at weird angles and wasting energy.
it is raining outside and the dog is refusing to go in his house. i am going to talk some sense into him.
things haven't been right recently. i have been attacking everything at weird angles and wasting energy.
it is raining outside and the dog is refusing to go in his house. i am going to talk some sense into him.
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earplug6947:
if you want to hear the mixes of some of the zaireeka tunes, drop me a line.
tic_tac_toe:
I dug the art design in that film--nearly every interior space, apt. etc., was so minimal and bleak, perfect for where the characters were at in their minds. And all of the spontaneously dissolving fruit and other oddities...I need to see it again.
an experiment in disassociation:
- two fistfulls of jimson weed.
- pootie tang firmly ductaped to dave eggers.
- padded room, stark white, with some tinny schoenberg pumped in for atmospherics. bright fluttering floro lights, also.
- a cattle prod.
- two fistfulls of jimson weed.
- pootie tang firmly ductaped to dave eggers.
- padded room, stark white, with some tinny schoenberg pumped in for atmospherics. bright fluttering floro lights, also.
- a cattle prod.
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eris:
you should have stayed in portland.
i saw songs:ohia tonight. and it was awesome.
i saw songs:ohia tonight. and it was awesome.
i like my family:
5 minutes ago, a big black unexpected jeep pulled up on my parents' lawn. the passenger side door opened, and my estranged brother threw me a baggie full of sticky weed. he grins, tells me something about a crack house but i don't understand him, flips me off, and drives away.
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5 minutes ago, a big black unexpected jeep pulled up on my parents' lawn. the passenger side door opened, and my estranged brother threw me a baggie full of sticky weed. he grins, tells me something about a crack house but i don't understand him, flips me off, and drives away.
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pendejo:
enlightenment isn't a state you achieve, spiritual development is an ongoing process
tryptamine_____:
that pisces moon you've got allows you to dig deeper than most people, i'm sure. and family members tend to have the same or similar placements in their charts.
i had a wierd dream recently, a bad one that i kept waking up from but couldn't seem to get out of... i had to make a very strong concsious effort to remove myself from it. but the strong scorpio influence should be waning off soon. i'm trying to take advantage of it, and reform or learn to accept the darkness it has been showing me so clearly... like picking a path through a dangerous wilderness by the flare of each individual lightning bolt.
i had a wierd dream recently, a bad one that i kept waking up from but couldn't seem to get out of... i had to make a very strong concsious effort to remove myself from it. but the strong scorpio influence should be waning off soon. i'm trying to take advantage of it, and reform or learn to accept the darkness it has been showing me so clearly... like picking a path through a dangerous wilderness by the flare of each individual lightning bolt.
This felicitous supposition declared that there is only one Individual, and that this indivisible Individual is every one of the separate beings in the universe, and that these beings are the instruments and masks of divinity itself.
-- "Tln, Uqbar, Orbis Tertius"
borges. borges. borges.
-- "Tln, Uqbar, Orbis Tertius"
borges. borges. borges.
earplug6947:
i urge you to start somewhere with the massive and rewarding SCG catalog. _torch of the mystics_ is their easiest album...then i think you might dig some of the more ranty charles gocher-based stuff. do check 'em out! they are complicated and weird and playful and masterful.
i am going to let left brain write this, i think:
today i was thinking about another online community i was on: vrave. thanks to vrave, i got into raving and computers and eastern thought and meeting people online. in the back of my head i wonder what would've happened to me if i'd missed the internet - probably the future my young republican...
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today i was thinking about another online community i was on: vrave. thanks to vrave, i got into raving and computers and eastern thought and meeting people online. in the back of my head i wonder what would've happened to me if i'd missed the internet - probably the future my young republican...
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risperdal:
i didn't think anybody who read my thingie would get the feyd thing.
holy cow. you were a young republican? i always thought that was so creepy; they had them at our school. i used to call them the hitler youth... no offense.
you know, i always had the weirdest feeling i was supposed to be born in india. ever since i was tiny i thought they were "better" people somehow. hm.
holy cow. you were a young republican? i always thought that was so creepy; they had them at our school. i used to call them the hitler youth... no offense.
you know, i always had the weirdest feeling i was supposed to be born in india. ever since i was tiny i thought they were "better" people somehow. hm.
earplug6947:
you like minor-scale hindustani ragas....but do you like [the] sun city girls?
i wrote this thing called "quantum chromodynamics" in my other journal and since i am lazy and don't have two entries in me today i am pasting it here:
i just woke up. this is not exactly true: i have been up for some time, but i have been dragging myself behind me. i had to wait for tea to shake me awake.
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i just woke up. this is not exactly true: i have been up for some time, but i have been dragging myself behind me. i had to wait for tea to shake me awake.
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earplug6947:
gaddis: i'd start with jack green's Fire the Bastards! for some background.
p.s. please admit you have a postal horn tattoo.
p.s. please admit you have a postal horn tattoo.
joyrider:
nah, no postal horn, i swear.
i do not know much about human nature, but i know that we want desperately to believe in something bigger than ourselves.
if you feel past the back of your thoughts, you can feel the breath of the universe. it is there, on your back, warming you.
if you feel past the back of your thoughts, you can feel the breath of the universe. it is there, on your back, warming you.
girlblue:
5am is my most active dream time. I'm thinking I really did "call" you. 
One time I was fast asleep and I heard a resonating knock like someone knocking on the door and pictured my friend a split second before she called me on the telephone from California.
On a different note, I fell in love with a particular singing bowl today and I decided to give it a home with me. I saw it in a little shop that sells mostly stuff made by Tibetan artisans and after listening to about fifteen different ones I picked up the one with the most physical imperfections and with a little patience (it took longer to sound than the rest) its voice brought all the little distracted parts of me back to center. The breathtaking beauty of its song almost made me weep.
One time I was fast asleep and I heard a resonating knock like someone knocking on the door and pictured my friend a split second before she called me on the telephone from California.
On a different note, I fell in love with a particular singing bowl today and I decided to give it a home with me. I saw it in a little shop that sells mostly stuff made by Tibetan artisans and after listening to about fifteen different ones I picked up the one with the most physical imperfections and with a little patience (it took longer to sound than the rest) its voice brought all the little distracted parts of me back to center. The breathtaking beauty of its song almost made me weep.
well, thirteen ghosts was about the dumbest film i've seen in recent memory. ergh. i don't give a shit how fast and erratic you move your camera if i am not interested in the characters in the focus.
i am going to get stoned and watch nosferatu now.
netflix.com is actually sorta nice.
blessed samhain to you witchy types.
i am going to get stoned and watch nosferatu now.
netflix.com is actually sorta nice.
blessed samhain to you witchy types.
earplug6947:
no no! tony s's performance in 13 g's was transplendent!! and what set design!!
i totally endorse getting high with werner herzog......if you are watching his version of nosferatu.
i totally endorse getting high with werner herzog......if you are watching his version of nosferatu.
mistersatan:
Thanks for the kind words, sir- and you're right, it is a pretty big "fuck you" to the old man. 
i have been thinking about nietzsche's "eternal recurrence" - the repitition of life, the same life, again and again for all eternity. i think maybe he stole this from schopenhauer, who no doubt learned it from the Bhramans.
i am obsessed with transformation. i want to crack bones and suck marrow. i want to reinvent and build. i want to climb mt. kailash with parvati...
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i am obsessed with transformation. i want to crack bones and suck marrow. i want to reinvent and build. i want to climb mt. kailash with parvati...
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morgan:
Become the next big philosopher, blow everyone's minds!
But don't be like Descartes, or i'll cry.
But don't be like Descartes, or i'll cry.
thelemurgod:
the concept of "eternal recurrence" is as old as
humanity itself, in whatever spiritual form. Trying to
determine "who stole it from who," is like trying to
figure out which culture discovered that
"eating food, good.. no starve."
humanity itself, in whatever spiritual form. Trying to
determine "who stole it from who," is like trying to
figure out which culture discovered that
"eating food, good.. no starve."
"humma-who-huh?"
"hummus, it's middle-eastern... usually eaten with pita bread... chick peas?"
"peta what now?"
"pita bread... you know?"
"we don't got none of that now" with a slowly shaking head....
i noticed whilest reading earplugs journal your musings on coleridge...pretty amazing for a dopefiend, i agree!
so, we're pretty on par as far as our existentialist readings go. besides camus and kafka i've only read essays...people like heidegger, sartre, & jaspers. and these were a couple years ago when i was still a lit major. but, i think sartre is a really good place to go if you want to really delve into existentialism.( ;