joyfuldemise

I just sent an e-mail to my grandfather, who is dying much faster than most of us. I thought he might like to see my vacation photos. This is probably the time in his life when he most needs to hear from the people who love him and I find myself without anything to say. It seems crass to chatter on about work, the weather and such, but neither do I want to eulogize him pre-emptively. The idea of summarizing his life and his value to other people, of saying plainly and efficiently everything that I have left to say to him...it's unfathomable. And so, I e-mail him photos and know it is not enough. What does he want to hear? What would I want?

If I knew how, I would tell him I am proud of him for going boldly into that void, fierce as ever and fearing no gods.