joshof13thfloor

Well, saturday nights show has now come and passed and while i feel as though i could have done a better job of things everyone else seems to think that i did a bang up job and thats all that really matters i suppose.

That and entertaing the marks, and baby we rocked the mutherfuckin' house.

That and having fun, and i had a fucking blast, man.

It's so fucking rewarding knowing that what you do is appreciated by your peers, especially when your worried, as i always am, of embarrasing not only yourself but those who trained you.

The best feeling that i can have out there, even better than knowing that the marks are buying it, is knowing that i am doing a good job representing those who have trained me.

I still have mixed emotions about Promo paying me out of his own pocket. On the one hand i feel very honored by this show of faith in me and my performance and abilities, on the other hand i always feel as if i'm not worthy of such praise.
I mean its not the money, it was only a ten spot, it's what the money represents to me. That i earned it. That i did good.

Now, if i can just get over this damn cold before the show on the first. That and a full body transplant would be nice.