dude, i can't masturbate in front of my cats for some reason, it always flips me out. i was "mixing the cake" earlier and one saw me and i stopped 
so lately i've been pretty proud of myself, setting goals for how much i need to write a day since i have to work.....five pages on days i have to work, twenty pages on my days off, and i've managed to do it. i have never felt so disciplined, organized and motivated all at once. the downside is i kinda feel like a plant sprayed with too much pesticide to keep the bugs off. plants and bugs are both parts of nature, they need each other. just like artists need pain, turbulence to remind them of the high. i am at constant battle with myself to do the right thing, even if it feels wrong. right now i just want to stay in and listen to the rain. i have Him's cover of Mazzy Star's Fade Into You in my head right now. 
so lately i've been pretty proud of myself, setting goals for how much i need to write a day since i have to work.....five pages on days i have to work, twenty pages on my days off, and i've managed to do it. i have never felt so disciplined, organized and motivated all at once. the downside is i kinda feel like a plant sprayed with too much pesticide to keep the bugs off. plants and bugs are both parts of nature, they need each other. just like artists need pain, turbulence to remind them of the high. i am at constant battle with myself to do the right thing, even if it feels wrong. right now i just want to stay in and listen to the rain. i have Him's cover of Mazzy Star's Fade Into You in my head right now. VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
These things are the "right" thing from a kinda-not-really-Zen perspective.
Sometimes it's just that simple.
But stick with the Mazzy Star version of Fade Into You.