jordan

i am drunk right now. DRUNK. so drunk that i am trying to find a song that matches how i feel but i can't maybe it hasn't been written yet....maybe you will write it, my dream came true tonight, my book sold out on hope street, but all i could think about was you, and i came home and you were waiting for meand i don't wanna go to sleep right now even though i could pass out easily in like 15 seconds, but i love everything i'm feeling and this is rare, this intensity, i don't wanna pass out. here, i will try to find a song..........the ocean breeze is salty...i wish i had whiskey instead of corona, it's never good to buy alcohol while sober, u underestimate how good u can feel, and god i love you, i need a bath but i don't wanna wash this day away, i want it to smell for along time, smell over all the bad, leave a crust, a mold........it was weird cos when i walked into the gallery and saw my words projected on the screen it freaked me out and i went and hid in the t-shirt factory and thought about you and hoped u weren't dancing with some girl and i know people say i wear my heart on my sleeve and why do i do this, but why not, i will only live once and i want people to fucking know ME and this is who i am and i don't care, only when i'm drunk do these things truly surface and i allow them to bask in the light and then i collect them and put them back in a dark well and why, life is too short to hide the red, the real my heart it's red and bleeding right now and yeah, you did this i dunno what else to say