Monday Nov 04, 2002

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A remake of "Carrie"???? What silly booger thought that was a good idea???
randomdent:
They are remaking that movie? Why???
jora:
No, even worse... a t.v. remake. It was on last night. I taped it. I'll watch it. But I won't like it.

Monday Nov 04, 2002

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My back is better now. smile

On Halloween I stayed home. It was most entertaining to listen to the party at the church on the hill. Loud oldies music and yelling about Jesus for 4 hours. I never knew that Jesus can make one twist and shout. That's what I heard, so it must be true. "Come on all you moms and dads... dance for Jesus!"...
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shaden:
wow, Jesus can boogie!? I never would have imagined...

Thursday Oct 31, 2002

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I threw out my back somehow at work yesterday and now I feel like someone kicked me in the back 100 times and left me to die. Things like this make me feel old. Sigh...
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t12117174:
First time I fucked up my back, I was, like 17. Working construction. Second time, I was simply putting a screw into a wall to hang something on. I was 18. This, as many things, will pass. it's always inconvenient.

If I could do it all over again, I'd have more sex (hurt like hell, but there was sooo much pleasure in that pain!), eat more ice cream, watch more movies delivered via netflix.

That sounds great about now...... what can I do to throw my back out!?! :-)

<gentle> hugz.. -t.
jora:
What a nice suprise to hear from t. He does exist. smile

Monday Oct 28, 2002

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So, yeah, work sucks. I need a vacation. I'm too depressed to do anything around the house. I haven't unpacked very much yet, and I've been here over a month.

I'm ignoring my mother. I'm still having hateful feelings towords her. She works for the Dark Force. She hurts me and then feels like she wins. I hate it when she wins.

My co-wker was...
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shaden:
I hear ya. Sometimes I feel like throwing my office chair out the window at work just to shake the boredom out of me.

Don't you hate it when you see someone you want to photograph but don't have the guts to ask? I'm such a sissy...
jora:
I don't know how I'm doing. Sigh... I'm restless and feel empty. Not fun. Throwing a chair through a window sounds like it would cheer me up. I wish I could let out a random scream in here (at work now).

I hate when people try to have "friendly voice" and they get all squeeky. Jesus, the fakes in this world make me ill.

Saturday Oct 26, 2002

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I've been learning to enjoy the peace that seems to be in my new apartment. It's very weird, but I think I'm starting to like it.

I stupidly bought a new pc game and am back to being a pc game nerd. Nothing like having a little false control.

Had a big fight with my mother. I wish I could erase our whole relationship. She...
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randomdent:
*hug*

Monday Oct 21, 2002

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Well, the move is finally over. It only took 11 hours, but hey, that's what I get for moving into a 3rd floor apt. The place is huge, which makes me feel small. I don't know what to do in all the peacefulness that surrounds me. I lived in chaos for so long at the other place, and now there is silence and space. I...
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Thursday Sep 19, 2002

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My life is in turmoil these days. I just all of a sudden decided to break my apartment lease and move. I was hoping for a more peaceful atmosphere. Noise-wise, it is, but if the Maintenance doesn't fix my A/C properly, there will be blood spilled. I am physically ill because of the heat. I am NOT happy. In fact, I am very depressed lately...
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clitilda:
I always find "there there" works for me.. but I hear ya.
ps We're all abnormal freaks. xoxoxox
deadhammer:
Yep. If it helps any, I've never met anyone normal. Normal just means that they hide themselves. (Now that's a sad thought!) What seems to hurt the most is not feeling like you've reached a point in your life. Feeling like you're not where you should be. But, again, almost no one I know is where they think they should be. I try and relax. If I can't enjoy it, I just try and get by with as little pain as possible.

Good luck.

(P.S.: "Chin up?" You know Mary Poppins?)

Thursday Sep 19, 2002

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Underage

Her world controlled,
secretly ruled, an accepted dyarchy.
Refuge found only in the typhoon's eye.
Numb to parental love,
gleefully, the whip falls
on scab-caked skin.

Sunday Aug 18, 2002

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So, the "single scene" sucks big time. I've had no luck at all. Maybe it's my trust issues. Maybe I'm too picky. My short attention span? Whatever. I just want to find myself a good woman. Men are a dead end.
Sigh...
fudoh:
heya, i live in san jose...where are you abouts?? yeah the single scene is no fun.
gil:
heh...
wellcome to my world

Wednesday Jul 10, 2002

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I am officially entering the "single scene" again and I think I may be ill. Now I remember why I stopped dating. I cannot click with anyone, and I don't think it's only my personality getting in the way. I am convinced that the world is doomed. There is not much quality left in it. I find that very sad. I am thankful for my...
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sokkmonkey:
Naww darlin it ain't you, it's just SJ. Ever since the cactus club went bust we have no home for the spookie crowd!
rogziel:
I have to agree with sokkmonkey... and yes the world is slowly spinning down the toilet bowl of the universe.
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