Ok, so my truck came back in one piece! 
So this means I did a good deed and am building some positive karma, even if the stress of the whole thing almost killed me. LOL.
Saw the Doc. yesterday. She up'ed my Zoloft and Clonazepam. I already feel a bit more centered. I have hope again. I really need to finalize the therapy thing, so...
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So this means I did a good deed and am building some positive karma, even if the stress of the whole thing almost killed me. LOL.
Saw the Doc. yesterday. She up'ed my Zoloft and Clonazepam. I already feel a bit more centered. I have hope again. I really need to finalize the therapy thing, so...
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I am a freak today. My anxiety symptoms are back, even with the pills. I have the Doc tomorrow though, so I'll ask her what the heck it going on.
I let my cousin borrow my truck. I'm trying to be a nice cousin, but I am nervous wreck!!! I've never loaned out my truck before. Not in 11 years now. And she is very...
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I let my cousin borrow my truck. I'm trying to be a nice cousin, but I am nervous wreck!!! I've never loaned out my truck before. Not in 11 years now. And she is very...
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schleprock:
I hope it goes well at the doctor today. It could be that your dosage isn't high enough. It's not all that uncommon to have something like this happen.
It is stressfull to go an spend time with someone new. I don't really have any other choices right now though since I don't have many friends in the LA area.
I'll look at bird feeders this weekend.
peep peep peep
Schlep
It is stressfull to go an spend time with someone new. I don't really have any other choices right now though since I don't have many friends in the LA area.
I'll look at bird feeders this weekend.
peep peep peep
Schlep
miloryan:
Yah, I think it means how many responses to your journal have posted. Hope the anxiety symptoms calm soon. Don't you just wish you could take your brain out and replace it with a new one once in a while. i know I do. Or at least plug in some kind of program that fixes it from freaking out and feeling down. Who knows. Hope your weekend is much better. Later, Ryan-
I'm tired of feeling like a whiner, but I still feel crappy. I kind of don't mind the crappiness in itself. I can deal with that. It's the uninspired boredom that is driving me wild. 
I watched the fireworks from my balcony (excellent view), but they didn't oooo and ahhhh me like they usually do. That made me sad, because the 4th is one of...
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I watched the fireworks from my balcony (excellent view), but they didn't oooo and ahhhh me like they usually do. That made me sad, because the 4th is one of...
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schleprock:
28 day has some wonderful creepy moments in it. I am thinking of seeing it againbecause I have a feeling that I am missed something important.
Taco seemed interrested when I told her she was getting a bird feeder but that could have just been the cinnamon of my breath from the mint I just had.
Taco seemed interrested when I told her she was getting a bird feeder but that could have just been the cinnamon of my breath from the mint I just had.
mrgreen:
I know I don't know you but I understand what your going through right now. I live it every day.
amazing dreams rule.
seriously.
amazing dreams rule.
seriously.
I am still bored and in need of distraction. All my usual distractions aren't working lately. Sigh. 
I can't seem to get anything done - at work or at home. I call days like that "Mo-lassesss Days", with the stress on the "Mo". Grrr. There's a ton to do at work, but alas no, I cannot seem to get it together. It makes me feel...
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I can't seem to get anything done - at work or at home. I call days like that "Mo-lassesss Days", with the stress on the "Mo". Grrr. There's a ton to do at work, but alas no, I cannot seem to get it together. It makes me feel... Read More
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sjoioi62:
hey it just sounds like you need to talk with someone, i hope that helps.
somekindofinsane:
i think we all need someone to kick our asses once in a while... maybe it will keep us in line?
how is CA this time of year?
how is CA this time of year?
I am just so tired today. I took my mom's cat to the vet for a follow up and she's (the cat) is doing a lot better. then my mom gets a bright idea to do dinner so we can bond or something, which turned into her being dramatic and crying about wanting to kill herself, as per usual. Then she wants to shop at...
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schleprock:
Greg Kihn was the second concert I ever went too. He performed at the local fair with Sparks.
Glad to hear that your Mom's cat is doing better.
Glad to hear that your Mom's cat is doing better.
Not much to say today. I'm going to sleep now, after I feed my hungry complaining cats. I feel a little better today, but I think that is only due to the distraction of work.
I feel like I want to do some writing (poetry and such), but cannot focus on that. Oh well. Maybe I'll get out of this rut soon. I sure hope...
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I feel like I want to do some writing (poetry and such), but cannot focus on that. Oh well. Maybe I'll get out of this rut soon. I sure hope...
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hotbox:
you sound kinda down. i hope today is better 
silencenoir:
I hope you feel better soon girl
How many cats do you have?
I have 3 wonderful *brats* myself. Gotta love them furry lil things.
(purrrrrr)
How many cats do you have?
I have 3 wonderful *brats* myself. Gotta love them furry lil things.
(purrrrrr)
So, haven't had much to say lately. Work has been very busy and sucks big time. I swear, it kills my brain cells one by one.
New tat is healing. I think it'll be ready for some pics soon. I'll post them after I take some. Tat is driving me nuts. It's in the itchy stage now, no matter how much damn lotion I use....
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New tat is healing. I think it'll be ready for some pics soon. I'll post them after I take some. Tat is driving me nuts. It's in the itchy stage now, no matter how much damn lotion I use....
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silencenoir:
Glad you feel the same about James Marsters. Isn't he just awesome? Did you hear him behind the scenes of the show? he isn't british but still sounds hella good. They said, it's definitive that he's going to be in Angel. yay!! I can't wait.... and yes he should have his OWN show... he would carry it off.
Talk later, hope you cheer up a lil bit and have a good week
Talk later, hope you cheer up a lil bit and have a good week
schleprock:
Feeling down is okay it's just the unending wanting to end your life downess that is bad. It sounds like they are working just fine though.
I have noticed that all the anti-depressants have been time stealers to some extent. Except maybe Prozac but all I could do then was work on two somputers and guzzle coke to keep the buzziness down. Housemates found it bizare that I could drink a 2 liter bottle at 8pm and be asleep by 9pm.,
Diaz has never done a lot for me. I think the only thing she has going for her is her smile. And no sense of shame.
later
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9::11pm It got you to laugh. Sounds like pick up line to me.
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I have noticed that all the anti-depressants have been time stealers to some extent. Except maybe Prozac but all I could do then was work on two somputers and guzzle coke to keep the buzziness down. Housemates found it bizare that I could drink a 2 liter bottle at 8pm and be asleep by 9pm.,
Diaz has never done a lot for me. I think the only thing she has going for her is her smile. And no sense of shame.
later
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9::11pm It got you to laugh. Sounds like pick up line to me.
[Edited on Jun 30, 2003]
As I posted in my 6/20 journal, I got the tattoo. Woo hoo and ouch! It's beautiful and I will post a pic of it when it's a bit more healed.
It's been a whirlwind of the last 4 days. What a bizarre vacation I've had. I cannot believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. There is so much to do, that I'm...
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It's been a whirlwind of the last 4 days. What a bizarre vacation I've had. I cannot believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. There is so much to do, that I'm...
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schleprock:
Hope your Mom's cat comes through everything okay.
I reallt didn't want to come into work either. I had just managed to get wound down from the week and was ready to do some chores around the house. Guess that is what my time after work this week will be for.
Can't wait to see that tat.
Rodney
I reallt didn't want to come into work either. I had just managed to get wound down from the week and was ready to do some chores around the house. Guess that is what my time after work this week will be for.
Can't wait to see that tat.
Rodney
hotbox:
I got a new tattoo this weekend too! And I also have a
"soul killing office job." I can empathize with your contempt for it too my dear.
"soul killing office job." I can empathize with your contempt for it too my dear.
Had another productive day today. Got my hair cut, bought a new nose stud and made an appt. to get a tatttoo tomorrow. It was a make-over day! I've been wanting to get a new tat for a long while now, so I'm really excited. I'll have to post a pic of it after it heals.
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juliana:
... so.
Finally someone who is in SJ and is willing to admit it as their location. I admire that; I couldn't bring myself to do it, for some reason.
Where did you make the appt? And what are you getting?
Finally someone who is in SJ and is willing to admit it as their location. I admire that; I couldn't bring myself to do it, for some reason.
Where did you make the appt? And what are you getting?
jora:
Got the tattoo. It's beautiful. I walked in there Friday and one of the artists (Julio at Marks of Art) designed it for me on the spot in about 10 min. I made the appt. and went back Sat. and had it done. It's been a long time since I've had one done... OUCH! But after the first 10 min. or so, I went into the "Tattoo Zone" where the pain isn't really pain, you know? It hurts more today, but it seems to be healing nicely. I sooooo already want to go back and get more. They are so addicting. Oh, and the design... it's more Tribal, but Julio added some shades of blue within the design. It was a cover-up too. I had some cheesey thing on my wrist that I got when I turned 18 and I've hated it for years. Now my wrist is very spiffy!
I'll take a pic when it doesn't look so scabby and post it here.
jora33
I'll take a pic when it doesn't look so scabby and post it here.
jora33
Today was weird. I felt weird, but in a good way. I am off work today and tomorrow for vacation and normally, I'd just sleep for two days, But I somehow (through the magical meds?) became a productive person and cleaned my house, went clothes shopping (which I usually HATE doing), went to lunch, visited a friend in need and then got a massage. Through...
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miloryan:
Kick ass Jora33! I know that feeling of thinking you just might actually be in a good mood but it seems unfamiliar. Anyway keep it going and thanks for your reply.
schleprock:
Congratulation on feeling better. From what I have been led to believe what you are experiencign is the way most people act all the time. I don't get it either. I figured everyone had to fight to get where they were going.
I would blame your short attention span on your cats rubbing off on you.
Damn, I guess I missed my golden oppurtunity with the pick-up lines. Eyes don't work for me, I am too unobservent to notice them. I have to be wacked with a stick.
I would blame your short attention span on your cats rubbing off on you.
Damn, I guess I missed my golden oppurtunity with the pick-up lines. Eyes don't work for me, I am too unobservent to notice them. I have to be wacked with a stick.
Good luck with designing your new tattoos. Based on the two I've seen, I'm sure they'll be really cool.
Anyway, take care!! Be good to yourself!!
-Dakota
(Michael)