jonplus

Why am I trying to date this girl I know she is going to say no. I am just so afraid to try but I need to. Why is it that I fill like I fall for woman that can do a lot better then me. I do not know. I just have to stop being down on myself. I do not know if this is because I am depressed or my depression is a side affect of this. God dam it what do I need to do? I mean I am not looking for sex I want someone I could spend the rest of my life with. Someone I could have fun and go places with. I not talking about just vacations but also just day trips. Just do not get to worked up I know I just need to calm down. And no she is not on this site.