joleigh

Its coming closer

Im wishing for copious amounts of drinks for my birthday this year
unfortunately the ones I wish to drink with the most are the furthest away



Kamila is home today at least, my polish queen I can't wait to smother her with hugs and humps


Ive been in a haze for months now
and well the only realization that Im still breathing is when pain comes with the rays of light from the sun in early mornings then it goes to the same mind numbing routine
Im waiting for a spark


I think I should stop waiting





it does a good job
numbing
and so I don't feel it when I see them slipping down their own slopes....
I just don't care anymore
and for me to be able to care
would take a 300 percent jumpstart

which I explained
and I saw it for a day just 24 hours
and we are right back to ground zero



I am too damn amazing
to keep smearing my eyeliner
so I don't....



You know



Well what can I say

Sorry

I fuck up

I drink

I am stuck

And I fuck up



I feel stuck

I am stuck

And darling I am sorry

Repeat it again





Broken record



I can't do anything. In the right

And honestly

I don't and won't care