joleigh

pictures coming later....
still
i am lazy
and sore and kind of miserable...
I really hate this state it is depressing
and there are other things that make this girl's head hang
no biggie in a week or so I will back at it again.
I want a drink, but I feel like I shouldn't I have been overindulging and when I crave something it can't be a good sign
I feel like this

a bitch

this shirt sums up my life







It sleeps
I am still weak,
stomachs turning for three days time
over what?
it isn't chemical abuse this time I swear...
nor verbal
nor physical
I can drink and drink my thirst won't be quenched
so I do...
Im starved yet repulsed by every sliver of food in my face
Retching would come easy
but we lose the pounds that were unwanted... hands shake, low sugar intake.....
High wheat
So weak
I saw a smile... and i walked away
voice fake
are you kidding
still starving
I want everything, I want nothing
so i sit in the corner with my back to the crowd holding the cake...
till the feast.
the consumption of souls
never gets old