jjay

spurts of creativity can lead do great things...
as long as you follow through to the end

this creates all kinds of conflict in my life. I have a hard time finishing anything or is it starting anything? ehhh....in anycase i think its a curse. i suffer from lack of motivation. seriously i can say i've never tried my hardest at anyting. it makes me sick to think about it and its painful to admit. recently though i seemed to have discoverd fire and its growing under my ass. i very much doubt that this will be the end of my motivation problem but at least its something new.. a lil more drive and excitement for living. things that i haven't felt in very long time. there is an wild ravenous epic in which i plan to tame. one day the lines will be blurred and the vision cleared. inspiration without motivation is just another dream.