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He began to feel accustomed to his discomfort. So much so that he had began to appreciate his predicament. It was his after all and no one else could touch it. He began wearing it like a badge, a symbol of who he was and where he had been. He soon had forgotten the pain it had caused him at previous times. All that he had experienced was forgotten. But it was still there, just buried deep within, a tiny ball at the bottom of his belly. It was waiting there, waiting for the day he would remember and on that day this terrible feeling would grow and expand until it overtook him and he could no longer stand it. This day was unavoidable. It was just a matter of time. The catalyst that touches us all.

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so I hear through the grapvine that the girl I lost the big V to is up here going to school now. Apparently she has been here all quarter. I guess she has a fiance here hence the moving here. I wonder if I'll run into her. That will be a story. We didn't part ways on the best of terms. I haven't seen her yet though and its been a whole quarter. Eventually though I have a feeling I'll see her. When I least expect it.