off to corpus for a couple days....
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I want to thank everyone for being so sweet and supportive. That's what I really needed. The past couple of days have been an emotional rollar coaster for me. I have moments of happiness followed by a deep down period. Things will get better.
My family now wants me to come down home. My dad promises he'll be on his best behavior. But my 22...
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opticnerve:
Time heals all wounds. Or is that 'wounds all heels'? Whatever. I'm glad that things are sort of turning around for you.
meemee:
awwwwww you're pretty 
about to give my mom the news....
update:
11:30 am: no one answered. i'll try back later.
11:56 am: called her cell phone and talked to her briefly. she was in public and i didn't want to give her the news then. i told her i'd call her back in two hours...so the countdown begins.
12:10 pm: talked to my brother briefly. i don't know...
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update:
11:30 am: no one answered. i'll try back later.
11:56 am: called her cell phone and talked to her briefly. she was in public and i didn't want to give her the news then. i told her i'd call her back in two hours...so the countdown begins.
12:10 pm: talked to my brother briefly. i don't know...
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soulessone:
I do believe your dad is right on some points, but there's no need to be so harsh. You're already pregnant; there's no changing it. Why put more, unneeded stress on you? It's a little cold. Give them a week or two to let everything settle in, and they will warm to the idea, slowly but surely. I remember watching my sister (who was 17 at the time) tell my father about her pregnancy, and he was so shocked he had to sit down and not talk for a while.
Trust me, though - as long as you and Josh are sure that you can take care of yourselves, you will. Now you have something much bigger than the two of you to focus on, and it should do nothing but bring you together.
And your family will catch up.
Much love to you, honey. We're all thinking of you!
Trust me, though - as long as you and Josh are sure that you can take care of yourselves, you will. Now you have something much bigger than the two of you to focus on, and it should do nothing but bring you together.
And your family will catch up.
Much love to you, honey. We're all thinking of you!
therealtexasguy:
This is my last post for a while (leaving for Seattle in an hour). Just wanted to suggest you keep your military ID card. Even if he cancels your benefits, you can still use your card to get on base and use the commissary and base exchange, and we both know how cheap stuff is on base...
Good luck, Jessica. I wish you and yours the best of luck and I am very sorry to hear that you're family took the news so badly...give them time, I'm sure they'll come around, most parents do, they're just terrified for you...*hugs*
Good luck, Jessica. I wish you and yours the best of luck and I am very sorry to hear that you're family took the news so badly...give them time, I'm sure they'll come around, most parents do, they're just terrified for you...*hugs*
Alright...more and more I'm starting to wonder if I can handle Josh being on the road. I love him and I know he loves me. I've been hurt in the past (from others and even from him) and with all honesty, I DON'T TRUST ANYONE....period. Not even my own family. I watch these videos of "behind the scenes" shit and what do I see? Fucking...
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therealtexasguy:
I can feel you there, Jizzikah. I'm the same way. I don't trust anyone, really, just my brothers and sisters. I've been in relationships so fucked up that they make Mexican Soap Operas look tame and mild-mannered. The one secret I've learned to deal with this is not going to help you because you're bringing a child into this world and that really changes things. (Kudos on the kid, though, they are the coolest fucking things in the world! The one thing I love about SA is that all my friends have all these bad ass little kids). Still, you have someone a lot of people don't; a support mechanism (ie SG boards, chat, journals, et cetera). Here you can vent your problems to people that not only give a shit, but understand. Fuck, most people pay top dollar for that and here you are getting it for the low, low cost of $4 a month! (try not to smile about that!).
Anyhoo, in the end you're just going to have to have faith in him. I know it's hard, but that's the only way. I've been hurt so many times that I can completely understand how impossibly, earth-shatteringly impossible trusting someone is, but you just have to do it. It's the only way. Without trust in one another, a relationship is nothing, you know? Hope I don't sound too preachy, but I'm a little tipsy on cough syrup (damn cold) and beer (hooray beer!).
Anyhoo, in the end you're just going to have to have faith in him. I know it's hard, but that's the only way. I've been hurt so many times that I can completely understand how impossibly, earth-shatteringly impossible trusting someone is, but you just have to do it. It's the only way. Without trust in one another, a relationship is nothing, you know? Hope I don't sound too preachy, but I'm a little tipsy on cough syrup (damn cold) and beer (hooray beer!).
wren:
I know this feeling.
Not a guy in a band, but the emotions going on were similar (tattoo artists have to touch other girls bodies ALL DAY sometimes....ARGH!).
It's not fun, and I never learned to deal with it. I'm just too jealous, I suppose. But I think it's pretty normal for women to feel this way, ESPECIALLY when they are pregnant! You have to keep your mate close to you, because you still have that old-world wiring in your brain - you are pregnant and vulnerable and if he leaves the cave and abandons you, a bear or a cougar or some crap could come in and kill you!
That's just me talking out of my ass, but I think the maternal side of you will amplify these emotions.
If you guys are true to each other, you should try not to worry. But it's hard.
By the way, I want to see more belly pictures! So cute.
Not a guy in a band, but the emotions going on were similar (tattoo artists have to touch other girls bodies ALL DAY sometimes....ARGH!).
It's not fun, and I never learned to deal with it. I'm just too jealous, I suppose. But I think it's pretty normal for women to feel this way, ESPECIALLY when they are pregnant! You have to keep your mate close to you, because you still have that old-world wiring in your brain - you are pregnant and vulnerable and if he leaves the cave and abandons you, a bear or a cougar or some crap could come in and kill you!
That's just me talking out of my ass, but I think the maternal side of you will amplify these emotions.
If you guys are true to each other, you should try not to worry. But it's hard.
By the way, I want to see more belly pictures! So cute.
Thanks for the concern everyone!! I stood up for myself, even though I cried. But I always cry. I'm the biggest fucking cry baby in the world. But I got my way!! HA! Thank god, cuz I didn't want to start a new job. I mean, I did...but it's hard going from tips to a paycheck. The transition would totally screw Josh and I over...
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tarbaby:
i think your comment in the "sgs as mommas" thread sums up my feelings perfectly. it's like you can't be sexy anymore. i don't know when pregnancy because a dirty word...
hope yours is going well!
hope yours is going well!
tarbaby:
you'd look good no matter what! the dumbest thing is that brooklynne emailed me and said to go ahead and tell away-i mean, she has pics of her belly in her candids!
speaking of which, she had a terrible tragedy-you might want to check her journal...
speaking of which, she had a terrible tragedy-you might want to check her journal...
Any lawyer's out there?? So get this fucking shit....
I had to open as a cashier this morning. That means being at work at 5:45 this morning. I get there, get my till, and stand around starving to death. My manager at about nine gives me a super quick break cuz I had cotton mouth and needed a drink of water.
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I had to open as a cashier this morning. That means being at work at 5:45 this morning. I get there, get my till, and stand around starving to death. My manager at about nine gives me a super quick break cuz I had cotton mouth and needed a drink of water.
The other cashier didn't...
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lx:
zephyra and Opiater are right. Really, they are. I've been through this with a friend of mine who I helped gather information to sue her employer. The employer received a huge fine and each employee received money. It was all done through the state.
But beyond that, I want to lay into your manager. I want to take his head off. I promise that I am not trying to sound like or be a badass, but I have no fucking regard for insensitive assholes like that especially when they fuck with my people. And you and your baby are my people damn it! I would go to jail and you would get fired and then you would hate me... But that fucker!!! RRRRRRRRRRR! Love you girl...
But beyond that, I want to lay into your manager. I want to take his head off. I promise that I am not trying to sound like or be a badass, but I have no fucking regard for insensitive assholes like that especially when they fuck with my people. And you and your baby are my people damn it! I would go to jail and you would get fired and then you would hate me... But that fucker!!! RRRRRRRRRRR! Love you girl...
monica:
i'll beat them up for you. everyone in that establishment. then you can come here and live with me 
*dances her happy jig* FINALS ARE OVER BIAAAAAATCH!!
How did I do this semester?? Let's see:
Information Systems-A or high B
Business Communications- C
Business Ethics- C
Accounting- ?? Depends if I got at least a 71 on the make up I just took...If so, I have a C as well.
Man, if only I actually put EFFORT into school, I'd get A's. I don't...
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How did I do this semester?? Let's see:
Information Systems-A or high B
Business Communications- C
Business Ethics- C
Accounting- ?? Depends if I got at least a 71 on the make up I just took...If so, I have a C as well.
Man, if only I actually put EFFORT into school, I'd get A's. I don't...
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infidel:
..I have the kind of OCD that only kicks in right before I leave the house....so I start picking up and cleaning like a freak and it makes me late to wherever I'm going....story of my life...
Tell 'em girl...whatever happens..at least it will be out in the open...
Tell 'em girl...whatever happens..at least it will be out in the open...
monica:
ohhh baby girl you can havemy o.c.d. when it comes to cleaning
hmm...looks like i'm probably gonna fail accounting. i have a make up test tomorrow to take, but what's the point? i doubt i can pull up my grade. dammet. i hate doing bad in school.
on a lighter note...i got some.
we cleaned the downstairs today. man, did we clean. upstairs is the next hurdle.
on a lighter note...i got some.
we cleaned the downstairs today. man, did we clean. upstairs is the next hurdle.
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kestrel:
I like the new pic. You're THE cutest mommy-to-be I know!
And good luck with the test!
You're THE cutest mommy-to-be I know!
And good luck with the test!
museb:
g'luck!
"Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: the tip of the toungue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta."
Started reading this book again today. Read it if you haven't. DO IT.
Raise up your pant legs boys and girls, cuz this dam is...
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Started reading this book again today. Read it if you haven't. DO IT.
Raise up your pant legs boys and girls, cuz this dam is...
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monica:
i love that book!! its one of my fav's!!
i love that book!! its one of my fav's!! 
slowtostanding:
reading this post made me want to go back to the library and re-read lolita... or because i'm so ridiculously busy at the moment, at least rent the movie.
And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
Studying is a bitch.
I'm starting to feel...well not unloved. I know my man loves me very, very much. I just...
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When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
Studying is a bitch.
I'm starting to feel...well not unloved. I know my man loves me very, very much. I just...
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monica:
i'll give you the sexxin!
lx:
We had fun with Dita. She invited us to her hotel and we had a huge orgy... But you're saving money. Oh well!
when i think of that city
itd make a good cereal for zombies
or little zombies; zombitties