Monday Jun 02, 2003

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can't sleep.

today was upsetting.

tomorrow will be disappointing.
well, if one anticipates discomfort and discomfort is had, it's not technically a disappointment. i think.

everything is spaced out. to dramatize the space? or to space the dramatisation?

i don't know why i do any of it, but i haven't a clue what else to do.

hate the heat. it's ugly. sticky. breeds filth;
parasitic invaders.
veins seem to pop right out my flesh, asking for it.
i'd like to bathe in my death.

can i say that?

self hatred. smells like broke.
kludog:
i think it is still a disappointment regardless of the outcome, if you anticipate it , it may turn out that way because you already expect it. but i think it helps to anticipate it, aleast for me it does. i used to get my hopes only to be let way down. so to deal with i just plan for the worst and hope for the best. heat is the future. it is only going to get hotter.
apathy_activist:
if you don't have hopes, what's left?
i'll agree with you on the heat, though.

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