Not a whole lot going on here besides me stressing of course. School has like double the workload lately because I'm teaching this 4 day unit to the 8th graders whom I"ll be student teaching next semester. SO I get up in the morning and teach, then go to work then go to class then go home (hopefully by about 7pm..8:30 on wednesdays) to eat and maybe get in an hour of tv, followed by working on homework and/or grading 8th grade hmwk and/or replanning stuff for my lesson. Two nights ago I freaked out. It wasn't even a huge deal that was freaking me out but it was literally one of the worst freakouts I've ever had. It hasn't happened to me in over a year and this was worse than it ever has been. I always thought it was just a mind over matter thing, you rationalize it then you don't want to do it anymore. But this time was different, this was my body shaking, my muscles tightening and spasming, me not being able to control what my body was doing at all. And all I could think of was the one way I knew how to gain control.. but Crissy was there and just laying there looking at me. I got through it, but that physical urge was truly something I hope I wont ever experience again. It just scares me because I know what this stress is doing to my body and like I said.. this is NOTHING compared to what its gonna be like next semester with student teaching. I just hope everything is going to be alright. 
Take it easy, WOMAN