jelly_bean

it's funny how you can have a good day and by the end, it all turns to shit.

been having a few of those lately.

today - good day - good food, good friends, good beer and good times.

came home to a shit pile of stress and now sunday looks to be shaping into not a good day -

i have a paper due i have still no enthusiasm, energy, willpower, ko'ach, or idea how to write.

i have to fax a student loan company in the US b/c they sent me a bill but i sent in a deferment...i'm still in school.

and i have to deal w/ bank shit b/c i got a registered letter and what i could read quite possibly freaks me out and i have to go and set up a payment plan so i can get them out of my hair. my dad said he might come into herzliya (where my bank is) to help me out. i just don't want to get into any more trouble than i am already in.

i just want to cry, kick, scream, yell..i don't know.

it was a good day...now, blah.

but by sunday i will take care of it all...i don't want this weighing me down. joual is coming home next week and i want to be happy and perky and bubbly and if i take care of all this, i will be.

i could really just use a hug from him right now, major cuddle.

not only all that but now i find out one of the roommates is moving out in july (the guy) and now by july i need to find a new roommate. it can possibly wait til october but i'd rather not chance it.

so, any takers? nice apt. in raanana, decent size room (the guy has a full bed, a nice size desk and a good size closet...w/ room to spare). oh, and me. and i'm cool. i just think i am going to need a new roommate, stat. come live w/ me! you know you want to!

my dad told me not to stress but i am a bit....i can't help it. but there's nothing i can do til sunday as it is w/ the weekend starting tomorrow. so i will hold off. but i am still...just arg.

it will all be okay, i know that. i will take care of everything.

but i just need a full on happy day.

i think i will get that when joual is home for the weekend.

i promise to have everything done by then so i can enjoy our time together and not be worried.

i won't be worried.

i promise.

but i did have a good day and was a bad jew and had a philly cheesesteak sandwhich.

it was heaven.

and the beach was pretty b/c the waves were roaring in the mediterranean.

calm, peaceful and tranquil.

three words exact opposite of me right now but i am hoping to imbibe them by sunday.