well its over and i have to say i'm pretty shocked. been thinking alot since last night and ive come to the terrifying conclusion that i am naive. its not just the election.
i feel like a complete outsider. over half of this country lives under an agenda that i simply do not understand. i'm not saying "those republicans", but i am saying that it never occurred to me how many people live their lives under irrational and parranoid circumstances. there is a fear of anything uncomfortable or unusual. a fear of choosing the more challenging option.
this isnt just in politics. i know people who are politically very liberal and still give in to this monster under the bed. they fear actually living. they fear being whole and would rather take the path of least resistance.
i have found that as i get older courage is harder and harder to come by, and it gets scarier as i realise that i am the one who is different. i simply do not understand people. the work that i do is based on being able to understand my environment and therefore communicate with it in interesting ways. how am i supposed to do that when i can't fathom this complacency which is so inherent in my culture?
i have always thought that if i put in the time to really understand something and the effort to realy make things better that it would all turn out for the best.
i know this was a huge rambling mess. i am confused and tired.
its just so hard when you put all your energy into something and it doesnt work out.
i feel like a complete outsider. over half of this country lives under an agenda that i simply do not understand. i'm not saying "those republicans", but i am saying that it never occurred to me how many people live their lives under irrational and parranoid circumstances. there is a fear of anything uncomfortable or unusual. a fear of choosing the more challenging option.
this isnt just in politics. i know people who are politically very liberal and still give in to this monster under the bed. they fear actually living. they fear being whole and would rather take the path of least resistance.
i have found that as i get older courage is harder and harder to come by, and it gets scarier as i realise that i am the one who is different. i simply do not understand people. the work that i do is based on being able to understand my environment and therefore communicate with it in interesting ways. how am i supposed to do that when i can't fathom this complacency which is so inherent in my culture?
i have always thought that if i put in the time to really understand something and the effort to realy make things better that it would all turn out for the best.
i know this was a huge rambling mess. i am confused and tired.
its just so hard when you put all your energy into something and it doesnt work out.
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i've been frustrated about this for years. i like it way more when women are actually having fun and not just going through the motions (i mean in movies, but in actual sex too). mainstream porn is so bizarre
edit - too bad those boys hijacked your thread, i was psyched to see someone posing a serious question!
[Edited on Nov 04, 2004 11:09PM]