My thirst for knowledge is growing large. I am trying to learn 3 things right now. 1) Learning about bikes. The difference between cyclo-cross, mountain, touring, racing and what suits me and what companies are good 2) I'm learning how to weld. Im reading a book right now and Im gonna read more and find out how much it is to get certified. 3) Im...
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So my interest for the day is a cycle-cross bike by cannondale. I had no idea what cycle-cross bikes were till yesterdale. Yesterday my girl and I walked across Portland on one of the nicest days. We walked all day and so far. We talked about how cool it would be to just have bikes and bike around. We talked and walked all day. It...
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mnislahi:
Walking for hours is cute.. well.. not too may hours! but yea, when you are with that special someone and just talking whatever comes.. its so niiice 
ANSWERS:
1- same.. xmas and halloween
2- a scar on my left elbow.. i was playing ouside.. skating and i feel
Hurt so bad too.
3- Taco bell.. lots of it.. a gordita woudl do just perfect.. you see they dont have taco bell here
ANSWERS:
1- same.. xmas and halloween
2- a scar on my left elbow.. i was playing ouside.. skating and i feel
Hurt so bad too.
3- Taco bell.. lots of it.. a gordita woudl do just perfect.. you see they dont have taco bell here
mnislahi:
Gothika was awesome.. and omfg school or rock even more haha.. totally diff movies.. but equal in awesomeness... click!
whoa.. you did get hurt when u were younger....
whoa.. you did get hurt when u were younger....
This is turning out to be a great weekend. I feel really good this weekend. Things in general feel better. Situation might be the same, but our state of mind is alot better, which makes the situation better. Besides, tons of people have financial and other problems, but that doesnt mean that they arent happy and dont enjoy their lives. I watched some corny lecture...
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mislaid:
some of my personal philosophies...or words to live by at least.
--Money cannot buy happiness. It can, however, afford freedom to do the things you enjoy.
--Paradise is not a place...its a state of mind.
1.) I've always said that I would be a panther. Something about that animal, its beauty, its fluidity of movement, its striking eyes, make me gravitate to it. I want to be a panther in my next life.
2.) Lavender deoderant and Amor Amor perfume
3.) I like to blast some mellow music, turn my AC up, and hop into a warm bubble bath. Mmmm.
Glad to hear you are feeling somewhat better. Its a long and bumpy road, but you can snap out of it. Hang in there!
--Money cannot buy happiness. It can, however, afford freedom to do the things you enjoy.
--Paradise is not a place...its a state of mind.
1.) I've always said that I would be a panther. Something about that animal, its beauty, its fluidity of movement, its striking eyes, make me gravitate to it. I want to be a panther in my next life.
2.) Lavender deoderant and Amor Amor perfume
3.) I like to blast some mellow music, turn my AC up, and hop into a warm bubble bath. Mmmm.
Glad to hear you are feeling somewhat better. Its a long and bumpy road, but you can snap out of it. Hang in there!
mnislahi:
Did you say to try out Angel for men? on me? heheh.. i shit you not... i have it.. but as a mistake.. well, not a mistake.. but there is a bottle of a friend of mine and he left it here and he's out of the country for a looong time so it basically mine now.. smells good. but did u mean to try it for myself?
Oh another thing lol, i was trying to figure out you name but i coulndt.. a lil help here?
Oh another thing lol, i was trying to figure out you name but i coulndt.. a lil help here?
So, The trip to Seattle was cool. I wish we had more time and money to really enjoy it, but it was good none the less. It made me miss living there. They tore down the old apartments down town that I use to live at. They put up some fucking officebuilding.(what a waste) I think the pace of Seattle is perfect. It's the only...
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missd:
You're absolutely right. My Hubby is a GREAT help. He's a very grounded individual, unlike his sometimes manic wife 
He seems to know the right answer, if there's an answer sought, or otherwise is just a great shoulder to cry on. We can pretty much talk about anything. If the problem is between us tho' it's a different matter..If we are really pissed, all lines of communication completely break down...once, a few years back now, we went three days without speaking at all... Luckily we very rarely have problems.
1) Vegas Baby..Vegas 
followed by 5 days/nights in Cozumel to recover/relax. I would LOVE to take a vacation with friends as I have never done so.
2) Taken a complete change of pace and career. Completing school and taken another huge step toward successfully being my own boss!
3) Golden Brown - The Stranglers
He seems to know the right answer, if there's an answer sought, or otherwise is just a great shoulder to cry on. We can pretty much talk about anything. If the problem is between us tho' it's a different matter..If we are really pissed, all lines of communication completely break down...once, a few years back now, we went three days without speaking at all... Luckily we very rarely have problems.
1) Vegas Baby..Vegas
followed by 5 days/nights in Cozumel to recover/relax. I would LOVE to take a vacation with friends as I have never done so.
2) Taken a complete change of pace and career. Completing school and taken another huge step toward successfully being my own boss!
3) Golden Brown - The Stranglers
So in a little more than 24 hours I'll be in Seattle. I've been anticipating going back for the last 6 months. It's finally gonna happen. That's the good news for the week. There's tons of bad news. Im tired of talking about it though. I figure that I can only do what I can do, so no need to fuck my head up worrying...
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mislaid:
Its amazing how much that journal entry sounded like me a couple of years ago. My freshman year of college was tough...so many things kept happening and I hit the darkest of dark places. I felt lost, helpless, sad, confused, frustrated, etc. and I just wanted a break. I wanted peace and tranquility within myself...and I couldn't remember how that felt. Its funny cause when you are up, you can't remember how it felt to be down, and when you are down, being up seems like a distant memory. Personally I got the help that I needed and, after a few years of struggling, am at a wonderful place in my life. One thing that helped, was that I became selfish. I disassociated with the people that brought me down, focused on doing things that I wanted to do, and moved to Hawaii. Three things that made me the happy person that I am today.
Hang in there, and don't be afraid to talk to your girlfriend about how you feel, and your weaknesses. if you can't talk to her about it, who can you? Or maybe get a psychologist. I strongly believe that everyone should go to therapy! To have someone to talk to that doesn't judge is amazing. Sorry this is an essay...and I don't assume to know you or what you are going through. I just wanted to let you know that its great you have persevered, and I hope that things get a little easier for you. You have so much to offer the world. Have a great time in Seattle. Aloha
Hang in there, and don't be afraid to talk to your girlfriend about how you feel, and your weaknesses. if you can't talk to her about it, who can you? Or maybe get a psychologist. I strongly believe that everyone should go to therapy! To have someone to talk to that doesn't judge is amazing. Sorry this is an essay...and I don't assume to know you or what you are going through. I just wanted to let you know that its great you have persevered, and I hope that things get a little easier for you. You have so much to offer the world. Have a great time in Seattle. Aloha
missd:
All over now, I am relaxing and taking my seat in front of the computer. It was a whole lot of fun though. Me 'n Hub took my grrl Annelle shooting today too. Twas her first time....ahhh the joys of fun with firearms (safely of course)
The sun is coming out, it's warmer, and the plants are starting to blossom. It's about time for spring. And with spring I hope to sweep away everything shitty about this winter and fall. Hopefully with the change in season will come the most needed change in my life. I feel tired, beat-up, old and run down. Every aspect of my life needs to change,...
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merry:
1. Bobby and I have decided that should either of us win the lottery, we will be moving to New Zeland. I'd also like to live in London for a bit, but it is more expensive than I will ever be able to afford.
2. The summer when I was 18... I didn't have a summer job and it was right before I found myself in my first "serious" relationship... my best friend and I did a lot of drinking outdoors and making out with random boys. Good times.
That is all.
2. The summer when I was 18... I didn't have a summer job and it was right before I found myself in my first "serious" relationship... my best friend and I did a lot of drinking outdoors and making out with random boys. Good times.
That is all.
welcome2thedawn:
"answer my questions...answer em, did ya answer en yet..."
ok....
1. you should know...anyplace warm where i could just live simply, not sure exactly where that would be
2. 19 because i was old enough to have my shit together, but still young enough that things hadn't gotten super complicated yet
3. hmmmm....probably a good sense of humor....uhhh shit, i dunno, what are they?
ok....
1. you should know...anyplace warm where i could just live simply, not sure exactly where that would be
2. 19 because i was old enough to have my shit together, but still young enough that things hadn't gotten super complicated yet
3. hmmmm....probably a good sense of humor....uhhh shit, i dunno, what are they?
I think job hunting is among the top things I hate doing. I've been doing this since November. Im getting very sick of it. Actually Im done talking about it today...its starting to make me wanna puke on myself.
So in other news...I keep thinking about something that happened at the SG burlesque show. This lady dropped an ungodly amount of money in front of...
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cc_baxter:
thanks for the advice on the ex. i know what you mean about job hunting and karma. i just finnished up what thankfully turned out to be a very short hunting experience. not fun. still waiting for a lifetime of doing the right thing to pay off in any sort of way.
1. The Walkmen "We've been had" has done me a lot good lately.
2. driving really helps me to unwind. when things get really bad i just get in the car and drive for a few hours and then get a motel in whichever strange small town i find.
3. you already took my number one choice in the boy Peter, though i would have worn the tights. so instead lets go with my sg namesake cc baxter in the film "The Apartment."
1. The Walkmen "We've been had" has done me a lot good lately.
2. driving really helps me to unwind. when things get really bad i just get in the car and drive for a few hours and then get a motel in whichever strange small town i find.
3. you already took my number one choice in the boy Peter, though i would have worn the tights. so instead lets go with my sg namesake cc baxter in the film "The Apartment."
museb:
1. william shakespeare, husker du, this mortal coil.....umm...there are more...i know there are...
2. ok you named every single one of my weird calming things...no fair...ok i'll spill a private one...being bound up tightly..
3. galadriel...lady death...the sandman...
2. ok you named every single one of my weird calming things...no fair...ok i'll spill a private one...being bound up tightly..
3. galadriel...lady death...the sandman...
I now have cable modem. It makes the internet so much more fullfilling. Half of the reason I like the internet is for music and videos which is basicly frustrating and impossible. Now Im just downloading as much music as I can. Music plays a big role for me, and it makes me feel so much better to have it back. Well enough about that....
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missd:
I always enjoy your visits. Thanx for answering my little questionnaire. Good for you in your decisiveness about turning shit around. It's all too easy to get stuck in the rut of tedious acceptance..I know I have many times 
I have various appendages crossed for you in your search for employment this week.
Made a nice change to see someone w/ a positive experience of the burlesque show.Good for you. Got my last day of phase out (testing) tomorrow b4 I graduate (in April) Wish me luck handsome
Thanx for answering my little questionnaire. Good for you in your decisiveness about turning shit around. It's all too easy to get stuck in the rut of tedious acceptance..I know I have many times
I have various appendages crossed for you in your search for employment this week.
Made a nice change to see someone w/ a positive experience of the burlesque show.Good for you. Got my last day of phase out (testing) tomorrow b4 I graduate (in April) Wish me luck handsome
leavemehere:
I am jealous of your cable modem status.
Stupid Dial-Up!!!!
Oh... if you're interested Kazaa seems to have the Pin Ups 2 you are interested in seeing.
later
lmh
Stupid Dial-Up!!!!
Oh... if you're interested Kazaa seems to have the Pin Ups 2 you are interested in seeing.
later
lmh
So I've noticed (after reading and being inspired by Katie's journal) that my journal doesn't really reflect my thought, mannerisms, or give any real indication of who I am. The truth is that what's in my real journal is in no way similar to this one. I compare this journal to public speaking or light conversation with people you dont know. Alot of what I...
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welcome2thedawn:
no...me...XOXO
xhavokx:
Well I really hope that you get your job!!!
1. I would make it so I could eat anything and not gain weight.
2. Hmm, I don't know... um, listen.
3. To get paid to do what I love, ride mx.
1. I would make it so I could eat anything and not gain weight.
2. Hmm, I don't know... um, listen.
3. To get paid to do what I love, ride mx.
Last night was the first night my girl and I got to go out. This week has been fuckin nice. Great weather, no stress, freedom and fun... the list goes on. It's like an emerging or awakening. I finally see why we moved here. Portland is finally doing us right. Im glad we stuck it out. Next week is looking promising as welll. Got tickets...
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cricket:
oooh i hope i do!
museb:
i don't think i would want music at my funeral...but i would want someone to read 'the jabberwocky' aloud....
So me and my girl are on a body waxing kick. It's fucking fun. Who woulda thought? We're gettin our technique down. I figure we'll be like pros soon. Though my chest looks like a 15 year old boy's acne infected face, with all the red bumps n all, I have hope that soon it will look descent. It's addictive so I dont want to...
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welcome2thedawn:
i love you more than anything...thank you so much...
missd:
VD 's my hermit crab selling maniac
's my hermit crab selling maniac So things ended up working out nicely. I really cant believe it. We were in a no-hope situation with no solution. Family helped us out unexpectedly. That was the coolest thing in the world. I am so thankfull to them. I got a job at Fed Ex and Im gonna get a second job as well. It's funny because I've been trying to get a...
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merry:
I'm so glad things are starting to look up for you.
merry:
Hmmm... "Here Today, Guano Tomorrow" by the Dayglos is pretty much standard issue for Canadian punk kids... never really did much for me. I used to have a roommate who was really into the US Bombs, and I'm not too into them either. I will check out the others though.
As for what I'm listening to these days, my mp3 player is a frightening mish-mash of 80s new wave, hair metal and one Eminem song. WTF?
As for what I'm listening to these days, my mp3 player is a frightening mish-mash of 80s new wave, hair metal and one Eminem song. WTF?
[Edited on Mar 26, 2004 2:44PM]