Once Upon a Time
There was a princess
And she was happy
And then one day
She was sad
And the more time she spent being sad
The more she wanted to cry
And the more she cried
The more she died
And the more she died
The more she...
- Jaclyn
catdad:
{hug}
jcrossuns:
Thank you. ❤️ @catdad
I̵'̸m̸ ̵s̴o̸ ̵f̸u̶c̵k̴i̶n̶g̴ ̸s̷a̸d̶,̶ ̵a̵n̶d̵ ̷I̸'̸v̷e̸ ̶b̷e̷e̴n̸ ̴s̶o̶ ̵f̴u̴c̴k̷i̵n̶g̸ ̴s̷a̷d̶ ̷f̴o̵r̵ ̷a̶ ̶l̸o̷n̴g̶ ̵w̵h̴i̶l̶e̵ ̸n̶o̶w̸;̵ ̶i̶t̶ ̵w̵o̸n̶'̴t̶ ̶g̵o̸ ̸a̷w̸a̸y̶.̷ ̵
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I̵ ̸w̶a̵n̶t̸ ̴t̷o̵ ̶c̷u̶t̷ ̵u̸p̶ ̷m̴y̴ ̸a̷r̷m̷ ̴s̴o̸ ̷b̸a̴d̸l̷y̴.̴ ̸
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̵I̶ ̷f̴e̴e̷l̷ ̸s̴o̶ ̵m̵u̴c̵h̴ ̴p̴a̸i̷n̷ ̴i̷n̷s̷i̸d̸e̴.̷ ̴I̴ ̵d̷o̴n̴'̴t̴ ̴k̴n̶o̵w̸ ̵w̷h̷a̵t̵ ̸t̵o̴ ̷d̵o̵.̶
̴
̵I̴'̷m̸ ̴n̴o̴t̶ ̶g̸o̴i̷n̶g̸ ̴t̵o̵ ̵k̷i̷l̷l̷ ̵m̴y̸s̶e̷l̶f̴,̴ ̶b̴u̶t̴ ̶a̷l̴l̸ ̷I̴ ̵w̶a̶n̸t̴ ̵t̸o̵ ̵d̷o̵ ̶i̷s̸ ̷d̶i̴e̵.̸
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-̶ ̶J̵a̵c̸l̷y̶n̷
-̶ ̶J̵a̵c̸l̷y̶n̷
-̶...
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jcrossuns:
@yuyuki Thank you. I appreciate your words. I feel like my posts are pathetic and sound like they’re attention seeking. I know they’re not, but that’s just how it feels and sounds.
yuyuki:
Don’t let anything beat up! And expose your feelings is not a bad thing! Your post reveals sadness... you don’t need to bear it alone!
I feel fine.
I̸ ̴F̵E̸E̷L̸ ̴D̴E̷A̸D̷ ̵I̷N̴S̵I̶D̷E̶
Everything is great.
I̴T̷ ̵H̴U̷R̷T̵S̷ ̷S̴O̶ ̶M̶U̵C̷H̵
I care about my friends.
I̶ ̴F̴E̸E̶L̷ ̸S̴O̷ ̴A̸L̴O̴N̶E̷
I love waking up every morning.
I̴ ̸J̴U̷S̴T̴ ̴W̵A̶N̴T̴ ̶L̶O̵V̷E̵
Life is so beautiful.
I̵ ̵F̸E̵E̸L̶ ̵L̶I̷K̶E̸ ̶I̵’̸M̴ ̵T̴R̴A̸P̷P̸E̷D̶
Where will life take me next?
T̶H̸E̵R̶E̴ ̴I̴S̴ ̵S̴O̴ ̴M̸U̴C̵H̴ ̸D̸E̶C̸A̶Y̴
I’m so excited!
S̶O̸ ̵M̴U̸C̶H̴ ̸D̶E̶C̵A̵Y̷
Everything is great.
S̶O̶ ̷M̴U̷C̸H̴ ̶D̷E̸C̷A̴Y̶!̶!̴!̴...
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S̷o̸m̷e̷t̴i̸m̸e̵s̸ ̴I̷ ̸w̴a̷n̸t̸ ̷t̶o̶ ̵d̶i̷e̶.̷
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̵S̸o̷m̴e̶t̶i̸m̴e̵s̵ ̶I̴ ̴w̵a̸n̴t̵ ̷t̴o̸ ̷b̶u̸r̸y̶ ̵m̸y̶ ̶h̷e̴a̸d̴ ̵i̶n̵ ̸m̵y̷ ̶p̸i̸l̴l̶o̵w̶ ̶a̷n̶d̶ ̴c̴r̵y̷.̶
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̸S̴o̸m̸e̸t̶i̷m̷e̸s̷ ̸I̴ ̴t̸h̴i̶n̸k̷ ̶o̵f̶ ̴t̷h̴e̴ ̸b̶l̵a̸d̶e̷ ̷p̴r̶e̵s̷s̸e̴d̷ ̶a̶g̴a̷i̸n̷s̷t̴ ̷m̸y̸ ̵s̵k̴i̶n̵.̴
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̶T̶h̷e̷n̸ ̵c̸u̵t̴,̸ ̴c̴u̵t̵,̶ ̷c̴u̷t̵,̵ ̷I̷ ̶r̶e̴l̷e̷a̶s̴e̵ ̵m̸y̷ ̵f̴e̶e̸l̵i̷n̶g̸s̴ ̴f̸r̶o̷m̶ ̸w̴i̴t̷h̵i̸n̶.̴
̶
̵M̷y̴ ̸e̴m̶o̶t̸i̴o̴n̶s̸,̷ ̷t̴h̵e̷ ̸c̶o̵l̷o̸r̴ ̴o̵f̷ ̵s̴c̵a̷r̸l̴e̶t̷,̴ ̵r̶a̶i̶n̴ ̴t̴o̶ ̸t̷h̶e̵ ̸f̶l̵o̶o̵r̷.̶
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̶I̵ ̶f̴a̴l̵l̷ ̴b̷a̴c̸k̴w̵a̵r̸d̸s̵ ̷a̵n̵d̵ ̴s̸l̴i̷d̷e̷ ̵d̵o̸w̶n̵ ̷t̶h̶e̶ ̸h̴o̴p̶e̵f̴u̸l̷l̸y̵ ̶s̸t̶i̷l̴l̶ ̷l̶o̸c̵k̴e̷d̷ ̸d̵o̴o̵r̷.̴
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̷W̷h̶a̴t̵...
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atram:
I'm so sorry for your situation, I hope you're ok now. Please don't put yourself down, you must be strong to resolve everthing
jcrossuns:
@atram Hi, honey. I’m okay. Some days are harder than others, but I’m still here. Thank you for checking in. I really appreciate it. ❤️❤️❤️
You would open the package that had arrived for you when you were out hiking.
You would feel your heart crack when you saw what was inside.
You would feel your heart shatter into a million pieces as you continued to stare at the objects within.
And as the tears ran down your cheeks, those pieces would turn to dust.
And when you went upstairs...
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Disclaimer: This isn’t an attention seeking entry, so please don’t view it as such.
I’m not happy. I don’t think I have been. All I feel like is a failure, and that I can’t do anything right.
I feel like no one has faith in me.
I feel like I’m trapped within a bubble that I can’t get out of.
I feel like running and...
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elixic:
I hope you are feeling better, and if you need to, reach out to someone, anyone, please! Even if it's just a stranger online. I know a lot of us strangers online have been where you are, we made it through, we know it sucks, but life gets better, and even though you don't feel loved, there are people who love you. Thanks for sharing.
jcrossuns:
@elixic Thank you so much. That meant a lot to me. ❤️
On a much lighter note...my boss’s birthday is tomorrow, and what better way to celebrate it than posting a picture of her on her Facebook wall that she really hates with the words “HAPPY BIRTHDAY! LOL!” written over it.
It was nice knowing you guys!
EDIT: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! That was totally worth it!
Good thing I’m on vacation all this week!
😂😂😂😂😂😈😈😈😈
❤️❤️❤️
- Jaclyn
I remember the first time you told me about how you gave up everything for your narcissist “boyfriend” and how shocked I was that you would do that to yourself, but self harm comes in many forms. You’re still doing it, too. Lack of self respect, lack of self care, lack of self love, lack of self awareness. Maybe one day you’ll have these things,...
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The scars on my arm will never fully heal.
Instead, they’ll always be a reminder that when I needed you the most, you knowingly refused to be there.
- Jaclyn
“How did it feel?” I would have asked had I seen you again, but over a year later, the question feels grey; not black, not white, but grey; a shade that exists in everyone; a shade that is everyone. It simply exists, like everything else, waiting for a time that may not even pass, that might not even pass, that will never ever pass.
A...
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I figured I’d share some of my work here just in case anyone wants to see what I do with my life outside of wanting Patrick to fuck me up against a wall.
This is a collection of dialogue excerpts from my earliest work shortly after my ex friend (Lavender Dreams) helped me help myself get through my writer’s block and reignite my “creative spark.”...
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