No pictures this time only because I haven't saved them to my new laptop I got for Christmas. Right now I miss Jacquelyn more than anything. I am saying goodbye to a lover and having a very hard time but it is just not the same anymore. I cant hold on to random moments of happiness when for the most part it is broken. I can not get the moment of New Years that has haunted me for the past five days and I am afraid for the rest of my life out of my head. I am in the same city as him for once and he is avoiding me but still I stay in hopes that he will come around, knowing that will not happen. I want to crawl in a hole and disappear for a little while. I want to get away from everyone and everything. I wish Jacquelyn was here.