jazzcoffeelover

You never know who your true friends are until it has hit you so hard in the face that you feel so burned, that you are raw and the only way you can handle the pain is by numbing yourself with anything that can make you feel slightly better than the broken peices of person you are trying to keep together. I will never open up to a man again. I have been played so hard that it makes me question if there is any hummanity left in this world. It is my fault I blindly opended up to this person pouring out my soul thinking they would care. He found an open door swooped in made me feel better for the moment and used me for every possible thing I would give which would be the shirt off my back. He came in claiming to be so genuine really caring about me then just bouncing out the door like everything said before was a lie. It was a lie, everything. He is a lie. I lied to myself wanting him to care. Wanting just a little of his chrisma, wanting everything that has to do with him. I loved him. He made me believe that he cared, wait he didn't make me beleive that; I was desperate to think he would want someone like me. Well, I am not as weak as I used to be. I am amazing! I have more to offer than you could ever know but you will never know. You are a user and I will not allow you to use me anymore. Good bye Corey.