Yesterday was a lame, stupid day.
-Fucked up a bunch of complicated ligistics stuff at work.
-A certain male hurt me again for like the millionth time. Why I keep allowing this to happen is beyond me.
-Got a disturbingly upbeat e-mail from my Unversity Studies teacher essentially telling me to get my shit together and start participating in class. Yeah, that'll happen.
-Found out someone I like and consider sort of a friend does not, in fact, like me at all.
-Went to Rocco's with Chuck and stared at my pizza and out the window for 1/2 an hour before we decided to leave.
-Tried not to cry until I was home and safely locked in the bathroom.
As cheesy and cliche in sounds, I can feel myself sinking deeper and deeper into yuckiness. The whole, "I'm not good enough, I'll never be good enough", thought that was my personal mantra throughout childhood and early adolescence is creeping up on me again, and once again I have no assurance or affirmations to prove that it is not true.
This pretty much sums up my mood right now.
-Fucked up a bunch of complicated ligistics stuff at work.
-A certain male hurt me again for like the millionth time. Why I keep allowing this to happen is beyond me.
-Got a disturbingly upbeat e-mail from my Unversity Studies teacher essentially telling me to get my shit together and start participating in class. Yeah, that'll happen.
-Found out someone I like and consider sort of a friend does not, in fact, like me at all.
-Went to Rocco's with Chuck and stared at my pizza and out the window for 1/2 an hour before we decided to leave.
-Tried not to cry until I was home and safely locked in the bathroom.
As cheesy and cliche in sounds, I can feel myself sinking deeper and deeper into yuckiness. The whole, "I'm not good enough, I'll never be good enough", thought that was my personal mantra throughout childhood and early adolescence is creeping up on me again, and once again I have no assurance or affirmations to prove that it is not true.
This pretty much sums up my mood right now.
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anais:
You know, I think I saw you at Roccos last night. I don't introduce myself to people sometimes, like last night, I get in shy moods and just don't feel like saying much. 
feel better!
feel better!
thelastasthmatic:
but i do like you!!