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Guttentaug fellow bi-pedal meatbags, I hope you are not unwell, and are still breathing regularly..Unless you are having really good sex, which I hope then you are breathing heavily.. Now onto my pointless written meandering.

I screwed up my tuition assistance application, so now I have to wait until frigging NOVEMBER for classes. I knew I should of done it sooner...ARGH.

I am still amazed from the Mars Volta show.

My mother is driving me batty, mostly at this insistence that I have a girlfriend ( I seriously have no idea how this idea came to be, it is truly driving me bonkers)

I dive myself into Hap Ki Do, and work, and studying for promotion.

The Star Wars Force Unleashed game, as well as Spore, are disappointments. Not that they are bad games, nor do I hold the hype of a game uber high, but it just seems like they are too lacking..

It's Friday, anyone wanna hang out? O_o

I need an honest opinion on two things

If you could live in Japan, or England, which would it be?

and

My brother is severely Bi-Polar, On top of that he can not afford his medication, and is currently on the outs with his fiance. So of course he is slowly killing himself. He broke her computer, he is eating pills like candy, starving himself and giving himself sleep deprivation.

Now, myself I have been supportive without getting involved heavily, I refuse to call as I will never get him off the phone, I am not sending him money, I give him words of advice and encouragement, and listen to his pleads as best as I can, however he either already knows what I will say or blows it off completely.

So my query is this...Am I doing the right thing? I am a person of choice, and he is making his. On the other hand, he is mentally bonkers (yes I know I used this word earlier, I just really like it) and is family in need of help. But so far as one of the more stable ones in the family (and that isn't saying much,considering I am piece of shit loose cannon) I tend to get dragged down with whomever I am trying to help salvage.

So.. Do I keep on this path, knowing he probably won't get out of this, o do I dive in and help, getting stuck in all of this and hopefully help saving him, but probably overly stressing myself in the process.

Just curious. (And yes I am aware of the futility of me presenting that question, but as most times, it's more for me to write out and reflect on later than to have answered by people I barely know)