jaybugg

*Commence the head banging against the wall!*

My D drive has done gone ape shit on me..lovely. So much for burning cds

I found out about 30 minutes ago any plans I had for October went out the window. Due to inspections being done for the Air Force..No leave is to be taken per my Commander until they are over, which isn't until the latter of October...Isn't that lovely? I go to Iraq, come home with no R&R, just straight back to work, and "Oh by the way, fuck any vacation you had this year, Jason" "At least you have more time to study for promotion, Airman."

So to the people who actually wanted to see me in Montreal area, I am sorry. Least you won't have to deal with me in person now.

Cant go to Ohio, Cant go to Montreal, Can't even get friends in the area to call back. Am I destined to work until I drop dead? O_O I'm too erratic lately, perhaps socializing would only scare people away at this time..

Fuck everything. RAWR Gimmie a beer.... Oh and I started smoking again. I suck I know. Off for more beer!

Jay-Stay Invisible

These hissing teeth seems so embittered
Leeching me I've begun to waver
Growing weary of handing flora to mutes
I keep my hands inside the deprivation

My stitches tear out in a staccato flourish
Tap the spine with the serrated blade
Visit me I've gone too far now
It seems a ghost you have forgotten

Tumults came to no reaction
Ululations suppressed into the larynx
Will this mephitic contemn egress
Come dressed in everlasting tatters again

Repeat the orange flashes can you see now
Are the eyes too sunken in the hollows
We have become indulged in a wane of itches
Just give me time to hemorrhage this pressure dry


Slipknot-Snuff

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I cant destroy what isn't there
To live with me into my fate
If Im alone I cannot hate
I dont deserve to have you
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me, saver every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath I will not hear
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
My hope was banished long ago
It took attempt before to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I wont listen to your shame
You ran away your all the same
Angels lie to keep control
My love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know

If you still care don't ever let me know