I am so sick of my self.. WHY WHY WHY do i not follow my instincts when something feels wrong? The doctors back home said i had a slight paranoia disposition, what ever the fuck that meant, and That my feelings when I am uncertain are wrong more than usual, b/c of me being so paranoid towards things I enjoy.
Yet almost every time I enjoy something, if it is going well, it means something is fucked up.
Yet almost every time I enjoy something, if it is going well, it means something is fucked up.